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I AM A BLUE

BLUES are motivated by intimacy. They seek opportunities to genuinely connect with other and need to be understood and appreciated. Everything they do is quality-based. They are loyal friends, employers and employees. Whatever or whomever they commit to is their sole (and soul) focus. They love to serve and give freely of themselves in order to nurture others' lives. BLUES have distinct preferences and are the most controlling personality. Their code of ethics is remarkably strong and they expect others to live honest, committed lives as well. They enjoy sharing meaningful moments in conversation as well as rememebring special life events (i.e. birthdays and anniversaries). BLUES are dependable, thoughtful, analytical and can be self-righteous, worry-prone and moody. They are like "sainted pit-bulls" who never let go of something or someone once they are committed. When you deal with a BLUE, be sincere and make a genuine effort to understand and appreciation.

YOU ARE ALTAIR/EZIO

You are a quiet assassin that is passionate about his order. You come from a long ancestral group that kill in quiet ways. You will not show your face to anyone but trusted individuals. BTW, you have a lot of friends just like you.

GRYFFINDOR

"You might belong in Gryffindor, Where dwell the brave at heart, Their daring, nerve and chivalry, Set Gryffindors apart." - The Sorting Hat. You have been properly sorted into Gryffindor. The colors of Scarlet and Gold as well as the elemental of Fire represent you best. The hat sees leadership qualities, greatness, enthusiasm, and idealism within your heart. The factor that one can attribute to a Gryffindor is their heart, which is often used before the mind. You are indeed a noble wizard.

What kind of girlfriend/boyfriend are you?

Jessica got Marriage Material.

You are worth the ring! Your marriage will last a lifetime when you chose the right one. He/she will apreciate and adore you!

ENVY

You have the desire for other people's traits, status, abilities, or situation. Envy is linked with the dog and the color green. Your punishment in Hell: You will be put in freezing water.

ZEUS (GOD OF THE SKIES/KING GOD)

You are smart, and strong. You are a leader. You aim to be true and right in whatever you do. You enjoy the Skies.

An interview with Chris LOL some things we discussed out of the millions of things lol Also some questions i left unanswered or just remember

Chris: People have fucked you over so many times. You needa have higher standards!

Me:I think that I actually have high standards that are hard to meet so i tend to compromise a bit.. because i do realize that my standards are just ridiculously high. However, it'd be nice if certain things do meet those expectations.

Maybe i should just stop expecting altogether...hmm....

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Chris: wow there was a 7.7 earthquake in Indonesia on my Birthday! that sucks.

Me: I guess you just.. *sunglasses* .. rock their world!

hahaha

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Chris: What IS a boyfriend to you?

Me: Obviously, they are attracted to each other. So much that they are willing to commit to be in a relationship together not only to get to know each other even more, but also so they know that they have each other only for themselves. They want to see if this relationship works for the good or the worst, and if not, they break it off. Above all things, they must stay Honest, Loyal and Communicate thoroughly and comfortably.

I believe that you should not have a 'confidant' outside of the relationship. It subconsciously tells the mind that its alright not to tell your boyfriend/girlfriend all the anger/things/problems that are on your mind therefore missing the point of communication.

They are all these things not because they HAVE to, but because they WANT to be.

they also must NEVER forget how to be friends/best friends

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sexual inuendos from words worded wrong lmao

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Chris: What do you like in a guy?

I honestly...hmmm... to summarize it..

I guess i have a thing for guys who play video games and can dance and perhaps like to sing. Someone funny who likes talking to me and we can always have interesting conversations and joke around. Someone who will not only have fun just sitting around with me, but also going out and doing simple things like working out, video games, sports, etc. Someone who's comfortable to talk to me about whatever, whenever even guy talk(He can even tell me who he thinks is pretty) i've been through guy talk before -__- maybe not that harsh but i've been there. S'what i get for having more guy friends that girls but i don't mind. Just.. spit it out of yo mouth, don't hold it in :D talk about it wif me.

Someone who will allow me to be independent but at the same time help and advice me. He is be my confidant.  Also, someone who works hard too. He can get off his butt and doing something instead of lounging around 24/7.

Someone i don't have to talk to 24/7 just to feel secure enough to know that i'm the only one their heart and mind desire. Someone who will not only lust for me like most guys will, but someone who cherishes my presence enough in their life that they will never tire of trying to get to know me. After all, we are all constantly changing at this stage in our life so you can never get to know someone completely.

Dream guy? i use to fantasize of one when when i was younger but seriously, where would you find that guy? Only in my dreams because never did i dream of him acquiring deceitful features.

ANYWAY;

P90X less intense version here we come! i'll stop though once i feel like i'm getting TOO buff lol Hopefully this will help me get stronger AND gain weight. The stronger i am physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally, the more independent i become. <3

WE WANNA GO TO SHOOTING RANGE BUT ITS 30-40 DOWLAH PP. ):):
and Ice skating is too far from Fullerton to go on Wednesdays

I want to dance with you

Dance. Let the moment fill me up inside. Fill me up with butterflies and joy, not only because i enjoy dancing, but i'm dancing with a handsome and brilliant gentleman such as yourself. I like sharing this intimate moment with you.. perhaps because it doesn't happen that often, either way, it still gives me butterflies and i always cherish those moments

LAST

1. Last place you went?
Monsantos house last night for Chris's birthday! :D

2. Last person to text you/ text someone?
Tweet from FullColl

3. Last person you spoke to?
Mom

4. Last song you listened to?
The business - Yung Berg ft. Casha

5. Last kiss?
CJB <3

6. Last thing you said on IM?
"is he still in the bboy crew?" LOL i fell asleep

7. Last hug?
Last night.

8. Last cry?
Last week? or the week before that or the week before that one.

9. Last thing you ate / drank?
water & Korean food last night. NOMNOMNOM. i love everything Korea

10. Last thing you downloaded?
songs

WHEN

1. Did you start drinking? HM! idk but i don't drink anymore. i only had that phase for 6 months or so.

2. Did you have your first crush?
1st grade! Hello Arnold Salas the second LOL chinky ass muthafucka. He was kinda a bully to me just cause everyone was ): idk i guess i had a crush on him because he was cute and i cherished the few times he was a kind gentleman to me when no one else was around to see that he wasn't really a bully, that he was a sweet person. Oh the peer pressure in the P.i. with kids

3. Was the last time you said I love you?
last night

4. Did you first kiss someone ?
anyone? when i was a baby. i kissed my family on the cheek

boy? HMM.. 7th grade? lol but i never did all that make out stuff til...

5. Did you realize that things need to change?
many times ever since i was little.

6. Was the last time you smoked?
never

7. Was the last time you got butterflies?
..IDK! ):

8. Was the last time you were angry with someone?
at myself Saturday

9. Was the last time you had alcohol in your system?
i think Mindo's birthday dinner

10. Was the last time you swore?
Saturday

11. Was the last time you smiled?
last night

12. Was the last time you hated someone?
not in a long time. if i don't like them i just choose to stop talking to them so i don't have to deal with their foolishness lol

WHY

1. Did you last cry?
thoughts about my momma.

2. Did you last laugh ?
picture i saw this morning. But Sunday i constantly kept laughing to myself cause of the people i was talking to. I wonder if my mom thought i was weird haha

3. Do you think you are the way you are?
cuz the people in my life affect who i am today

4. Are you feeling the way you are right now?
because things must change.

5. Are you doing this?
idk LOL i got shit to do. i just like surveys

New level of growth

• idk when i fell asleep last night. i only reember waking up and feeling like i've slept for days when really, it was only a few hours

• Sad to say i am throwing away my cute froggy underwear. there is a monstrous hole in it. WHY oh why do i keep getting holes in my pants and my unmentionables in the crotch area -_- maybe cause i don't wear shorts when i stretch? but why do my undies do that -_- i don't think i laundry them properly ): oh well.
• I'M NOCTURNAL now. i feel indifferent about it.
• I am falling in love with the book the Scarlet Pimpernel

anyways; before this week, i have lost sight of the morals and values i live by. I have not been myself lately and this week i'm trying to turn it all around again. Because it does not feel good to be this person that i previously was for a short period of time. I know that if i continue to live in this personality, i wont succeed in life nor will i be happy. My mind is seething for excitement, success, happiness within myself, and i can find that not only in myself but also others and all this world has for me. I must make peace with myself, at least temporarily til' i get out of here. The world is just teasing me through my hopes and dreams and unfortunately, i cant accomplish any of it without money which i do not carry at all whatsoever. So i am more determined now more than ever to save as much money as i can.

I know that i don't talk to certain people enough so here i am trying. but quite frankly, if i get in touch with certain people to talk and catch up with right now it would be strange cause in the past i've only shared a mere hello and goodbye and maybe a small talk or two. But i did have intentions to be closer to them, only that i never saw them after our small talk/group conversation.

AHHH!
i cant wait for:web cam parties were planning out
: me and Jackie are planning out a game night that will take place in two weeks

i HATE being a girl sometimes

Hate getting all moody and shit and getting your period. And all the other perks that come along with hormones.

"I hate having insecurities.

Because with all these insecurities follows trust issues, jealousy, secure-less, guards/walls up. Did I miss anything else? I’m so complicated, why -_-?" -ashleywhy:

don't like being complicated; but i am.

Today i've been thinking about the reasons behind my actions.

Also, i've realized that wherever i go i feel awkward and shy. How did i grow to be this person? I don't like it.

gonna change. i GOT TO change. -__________________-

i keep telling myself this but why is it so hard. i did it before, why cant i now?

must.. try.. HARDER

I guess its true when they say "you are your own worst enemy"

right now i don't feel worthy. GOD i hope i feel much better tomorrow.

Just gave myself a back massage.. but i cant reach the middle of my back ):

Today i am going to help myself to some homework and perhaps a little anthro. Then wonder off to Mervin's. Hope it will be a good day.

I love being home alone, blasting the music and carelessly walking/dancing around in just my bra and underwear. I can't wait til' i get my own place and do this whenever i want, close my door and have some privacy and do whatever else i CAN do in a normal house.

i love my kuya DannMartz. were the most similar i think and DJ.. so far out of my cousins

were conjuring up a devious plan for monday. he's halfway around the world but i hope we'll be close enough to hang out often soon. He'd be the perfect big brother for me.

Makes me happy just talking to him

rant rant rant

• i like friends who want to get to know me better and spend more time
• i like friends who remember what i like and stuff
• i like people who don’t take me for granted
• i like having meaningful conversations
• i like people who teach me/show me new things
• i like people who motivate/help me to achieve my goals & aspirations
• i like people who respect me. When they do, i respect them back.
• i like feeling like a kid again. carefree and shit. especially when i get a happy meal, do kiddy stuff, etc.
• i like going on adventures and doing stupid shit with people just cause its fun/funny
• i like hanging out even if it simply means sitting and having a conversation
• i like eating out with friends
• i like joking around with people
• i like people who keep their word
• i like sleeping in the car on road trips
• i like singing in the shower
• i like meeting new people as well as getting to know them

i’m thankful for:

• God
• the gift of life
• an education
• opportunities
• mother
• grandparents & grandaunts&uncles
• family who care enough to K.I.T. and care
• friends especially the thoughtful ones and actually make an effort to K.I.T.
• experiences & life lessons it taught me
• good health (i hope i still have that)
• being unique
• CirJeffrey Lalota Baldomero

I don’t like it when:

• i am rushed. I am constantly rushed by my mother and she rushes me so much, that i pace back and forth confused of what to do first: brush my teeth, get my shit together, do my hair, change, eat, etc. she commands me to do too many things at once. cmon woman, there is only ONE me; if you needed more shit done, maybe you should have had more of me. It would help me cope with loneliness here in this house.
• people take me for granted
• people lie to my face
• don’t keep their word
• people respond with 2 - 3 letter answers or even just 3 words or don’t even respond at all.
• people are rude
• people step on my shoes ESPECIALLY IF THEY ARE NEW. like wtf, you can obviously tell they are new, there is more reason to watch out for it.
• people don’t meet me halfway on things
• i have to constantly remind the person til they get it / remember it. Like wtf i know you ain’t THAT stupid.
• people cant take a joke.
• i word something wrong and the person takes it the wrong way -_- my bad
• i start being immature
• people answer me in a rude way/ RUDE PEOPLE
• songs are overplayed

i’m sorry for:

• being too shy; not speaking my mind enough
• not having enough self esteem & courage & for being to insecure at times
• not opening up enough?
• for not living in the moment enough
• not controlling my emotions enough
• not believing enough
• not studying enough
• not choosing the right words when i speak
• neglecting my goals
• for procrastinating on things
• not keeping my word sometimes, when i should. i’m a hypocrite on this part. cause i do tend to procrastinate and eventually forget and it bugs me when people don’t keep their word. It causes me to trust them less next time.
• being distracted
• being forgetful
• being an air head at times
• being clumsy
• if i get selfish sometimes. sometimes even jealous. ( real mature right?)
• having a foul mouth
• having health problems/not taking care of my body as much as i should
• not being “smooth” with conversation
• for not knowing things cause i don’t watch t.v. often or cause i grew up in the P.I. or because i don’t watch enough movies or play enough games
• not being smart enough
• for not always being ‘classy’ and dressing like it 24/7
• for not always being a ‘proper lady’ 24/7
• not having enough money
• not seizing every opportunity i have/had
• the way i talk.. i'm workin on that
• not having perfect posture anymore ): my back always hurts.. i need a nice LONG massage
• every flaw i have. But no one is perfect

i’m working on me, every single day.. and progress comes each day passes

I am mature but sometimes everyone gets immature feelings/thoughts, etc.

"Guys say they want a girl who is real. but when she tells you everything straight you can’t handle how blunt she is. so you call her a “bitch”, and say she’s too controlling. if you can’t handle the heat, stop making excuses and get out of the fuckin’ kitchen"

These type of people ruined me.

I started gettin’ real w/ them then they complain and stop talkin’ to me. You wanted me to be real and tell the truth and be all up front right? then stop bein’ a baby. i hate it when that happens.One of the reasons i keep things to myself.

I also hate it when people are lying to my face just so they don't hurt my feelings. I'd rather have someone tell it to me straight and be honest rather than lying to my face. Thats just worse.

Honesty is very important.

HE IS..

Those guys that have that humble demeanor about him. With that “I don’t give a fuck” attitude, but without all the flashy things. None of that “I’m down for my shit” shit, because if he was really down, people would know it. He wouldn’t need to let strangers know how he handles his business, because it’s none of theirs.(sexy)

If I was approached by someone and he was really polite, like “Hey, my name is so-and-so and I would really like to get to know you,” I would definitely think “Damn, this guy is fly.” Versus the typical “Aye ma, you fine. I wanna know you,” and then he would proceed to stare at you like you’re some type of meat.( shows they are polite and a gentleman, not rude. Also shows they are brave and outgoing)

I like knowing that my guy’s been through some struggles. I like even more when he embraces those struggles and knows that they’ve only made him a stronger person and a better man. He isn’t bitter about any past relationships and doesn’t bring any of that past baggage into his future ones.(show's he's a strong individual and has enough drive to work hard and have a much brighter future. He knows exactly what to become which is a better person. ..Don't like them spoiled ninjas. They think they can get whatever they want in life.)

A guy who has goals and ambition. Not for nothing, if he didn’t finish his education I like seeing that he’s not sitting on his ass waiting for good luck to come to him. I like guys who make their own luck, and fight for what they know they deserve.(shows they are hard workers and see a brighter future. they know that not everything just comes to you, you gotta make things happen. Not lazy.)

I like guys who give respect and earns his own. He respects his elders and he loves his mom and even if he didn’t have the perfect childhood, he still believes in giving a better one to his future family. I like him family oriented. No matter how much he loves me, i will always want him to put his family first.

Those guys who give off a certain sex appeal. When you look at him, you wonder why he’s so damn attractive, because he’s not the guy crackin’ jokes across the room, or the guy showing his moves on the dance floor, or that guy with the gorgeous smile and nice clothes.

He’s just him.
low-key sexy guy.
I like him. (:

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i got that shit from someone's blog but i added the 3 little sentences at the end.. I totally agree with all of that up there.

I also like it when people get all lyrical describing someone (: maybe thats also why i like rap/underground hip hop. Not only how rappers describe life but also the person they like/love

Damn straight. NEVER take anything for granted

“ Don’t ever let a girl’s efforts for you end in vain. If you love her, take note of the little things she does. When she lets you see her without her makeup, when she brings you your favorite food or drink just because, when she whines softly that she’s cold or that she wants a kiss, when she runs her fingers through your hair. There are probably a million other things she’ll do for you because she loves you, because she wants to, and she will never ask for your acknowledgment of them; but understand that one day she may feel unappreciated, unloved; neglected by your lack of gratitude towards these little things, and may stop. Remember all the reasons why you love her, and remember to appreciate them. You know that saying, you never know what you had until it’s gone. Don’t take her love for granted.”

Confidence. Some have it, some lack it, some need it. Where confidence is absent, insecurities conquer.. and we all know being insecure isn’t cute, if anything, it can make the world’s prettiest girl look like… a monster.

The only way gain confidence is to stop looking at your surroundings and focus on you. Stop comparing yourself to others and everything and focus on how to be the best, be different, unique, and all those other cute words you aim to be. Focus on how to get there. You comparing yourself to your boyfriend’s ex girlfriend or the girl on the magazine is cheating. You’re cheating yourself by making yourself feel bad and making this whole process longer than it has to be. Do you really wanna be your boyfriend’s ex girlfriend? (pun intended) He’s not with her for a reason - that’s cause he’s doing better, he’s doing you. (pun intended, again) Do you really wanna be that girl in the magazine? Don’t you wanna be yourself and be MADhella good at it? Fuck the rest, I say!

You gotta stop thinkin’ about others are gonna think/say. Who the fuck are they? They ain’t payin’ your bills, putting food on your table. They ain’t there listenin’ to you yap about how your life sucks. If they’re not supporting you or making you happy in any way, cross ‘em off your list. I only have 4 ride or die bitches, and the others I keep at a distance.

Eating bitches for breakfast is all about prioritizing your shit - the confidence will come by itself. Get your shit straight - literally. What do you want to accomplish - for yourself? Do what you gotta do to make that happen. Once you accomplish that, relax and take on another challenge. It’s all about making yourself better - all by yourself - with no one’s help. You must stay hungry. It’s survival of the fittest - and you will not lose. Trust, once you accomplish one of your goals, you’re gonna feel soo good about yourself and from then on, you’re gonna stay hungry for that feeling of accomplishment. Never let that feeling go. Always look out for yourself and for the ones you love.

In conclusion, it’s all about not giving a shit about others and it’s all about getting yours. Stop comparing yourself others - but if you must, compare yourself to others and how you can be better than them - without getting in the way of their grind. Never get in the way of someone’s grind, and no one will get in the way of yours. And all that drama bullshit? Dust that shit out the window. Don’t stress over frail shit, that’ll only make ‘em wrinkles come sooner than they’re supposed to. Don’t get mad, get better… and most of all.

Don’t be bitter, stay sweet.

There's a lot of things i'm worried about

Health

• back pains ruin my day
• breasts.. i don't want to say exactly what it is cause it could be serious
• Lactose Intolevrant. I miss eating things..

Relationships:

• MHM...

Future:

• E V E R Y T H I N G.. i still don't know which subject i want to study in the health department. And how i am going to take these side hip hop & art classes. Yup! i might actually do art.. maybe
• i want to learn how to cook more things.. i jsut need money and ingredients
• MONEY MONEY MONEY. money rules everything around me unfortunately. You can't do anything in this world without money.

Wednesday100610

• Dilemmas, dilemmas. didn't get enough sleep
• Late once again to Math. Stupid traffic!
• SI was pretty fun. team "we're thinking!" lol -_- Me and Melody creep'd out of class asap haha
• Rounded up for Steph's 19th birthday Lunch & mall outing
• Mark(not Maio) was a Rainier look-a-like haha. i have to show him a pic. one of these days
• Islands! yummy place. Halfed a burger with David since it was endless fries anyways. Got Steph. that birthday cake :)
• Brea Mall
• Math Lab
• Anthro. discussed the many types of marriage and family in different cultures and the different process. bombed our midterm -_- which is why i recently started studying ahead and i'm going to start making flash cards and doing my papers waaay ahead of time.
• sat @ zee ML w/ mark for 2 minutes haha
• CB playlist
• my mom was telling me about her dream last night.. about me as a baby, her and someone else. we were driving in a van on a very steep road and our van was BARELY staying in because if we just slip up once, we will fall and die. people started coming our way so we had to start walking. She would let me walk ahead(idk how i can since i was a baby) and we had to concentrate on staying on. I think this is a metaphor for our life. Our life is the steep road and if we can't slip or else we will fall. Our life we've had to stay strong and make sure we stay on top of things so that we can survive.
• I love my friends.. very much.

My socks were drenched in water and i couldn't change it til an hour ago. disgusting! Probably why my feet hurt.

My back is hurting 24/7.

No matter now much fun i had today, i'm sad.

She’s always joking around and being silly even when the odds are against her. She’s always making me laugh.. of course when she’s not busy nagging me about stuff i already know lol I wish she’d just spend more time with me, instead of spending time with her soaps.. but thats what makes her happy!

“There is no greater love than a mother’s love”

She’s my inspiration, my angel. No she wasn’t also a dad. You know who was? LIFE. Life was my father. Life taught me how to pick myself off the ground and try again. Life taught me what to believe in. Life taught me most things. But the things that life didn’t teach me, my mom did.

I don’t want to realize how much a person means to me when its too late..

No one lives forever, everyone’s days are numbered but you never know when God will want you back. So i urge you to go out and live life to the fullest, appreciate and never take anything for granted. Treat others how you would want to be treated. Remember that there is a reason for things in life and be understanding and patient. When one door closes, another door opens. When you fall, simply get back up and try again.

“You are not an accident. Your parents may not have planned you, but God did. He wanted you alive and created you for a purpose. Focusing on yourself will never reveal your purpose. You were made by God and for God, and until you understand that, life will never make sense. Only in God do we discover our origin, our identity, our meaning, our purpose, our significance, and our destiny.”


— This means a lot especially for someone like me. all my life everyone around me has made me feel like am a huge fucking accident. I’ve been moving because i’m such a huge weight on everyone’s shoulders but in reality, they just don’t have a big enough heart. the story of my mom’s pregnancy proved to me that i was never really meant to be born. My father didn’t want me to be born because of commitment; i was the reason they broke up (but i was a good thing cause he was cheating on her anyway -__-). The doctors and my family also didn’t want me to be born because my mother would have died giving birth to me at such an old age(43). The only person who really fought for me to be alive was my mother and my grandmother. Thankfully, God gave us a miracle, my mother lived and i was born a healthy baby. I love my mom. Yeah, shes a noob and things, she’s very forgetful, her voice gets really loud and annoying, she cant walk far, her judgement is getting a tad worse; it all gets worse everyday. I love her so much and it just makes me cry because all this makes me realize that she is getting old. I have never pictured my mother getting older. I’ve always pictured her to be the young, lively person she’s been before. She pisses me off so much, but whenever i look at her i am happy that she is my mother. I couldn’t have a better mother in the world. A lot of shit has happened in the past but she still manages to cheer herself up and to stay happy. It just pains me so much to realize that one day she will be gone. I’m thankful each day that God brought her back to life a few years ago. She died for a couple of minutes but that God that he brought my dear guardian angel back. All the medication she’s been taking and the drugs that they gave her in the hospital are whats causing her to loose her memory and stuff. I honestly don’t know what i would do without her. She couldn’t have raised a more proud, strong, and intelligent daughter. I just wish she wasn’t so negative about life.God gave my mother two second chances at living and i’m extremely thankful for that. My mom is going to have to undergo another surgery within the next 5 years or so. I hope God gives her another chance at staying alive..

I love college

i love learning new things

i love meeting people

i love making up my own schedule..

i love being a responsible individual

i love reading about topics that interests me

i love taking classes that actually interest me so i pay attention easier

i love freely bustin out my laptop in class

i love exploring new ideas and learning new things on the daily

i love free money

i love choosing and being free

i love having so many choices for my future.

i’m starting to not hate doing essay.. i actually like it.

idgaf. Im a nerd. :P

i guess i only like it right now cause i don’t have alot of classes.. but next sem. is gonna be a bitch! im gonna try and double up. alot of online AND on campus classes. I’m also excited for Hip Hop class with my friends next semester :) and i think i’m going to join PASA! :D

choices from first to last: UCLA, UCI, Cal State Fullerton, Cal State Long Beach, and on and on.

If i end up at CSULB, i’m probably going to join a sorority that Ateh Jeanell and Bials joined. too bad they just graduated..

Anyways, Its not my fault my life is so bad, but the things i make out of bad situations make my life pretty sweet :) i’m slowly turning things around. ”if you hate something, change it!”

if i was bomb at math, i would be an architect.

i WOULD be a lawyer, but i’d feel weired for many reasons.

i would major in fashion, buuut, so much competition! but then again, so is anything in the medical field.. hm..

i wish Dermatology didn’t take like 15 years or so of my life.

SO MANY CHOICES! AHHH. k bye. gonna go get ready for Buena Park. Oh and me and Jamie are also gonna do a little shopping again today :P and i think ima play with her hair LOL. PEACE!

Sorry for neglecting you Blogspot, but sometimes, the things i want to post on this thing, i tell it to my boyfriend which is MUCH better. anyway...



Downloading music. damn i got a buttload of music already as it is, but its not even close to all the music i want. This is what i get for liking a bunch of genres of music :P THERE IS NO PROBLEM WITH THAT!

Genre currently downloading: Underground Hip Hop.

for all you douchebags that never wanted me; i'm on my way to making ya'll regret ever rejecting me.

haha i just deleted this huge rant..

i HATE being taken for granted..

i feel like everyone(or majority of the people) in my life do.

am i too shy? too friendly? too nice? do too much things for people?
too thoughtful? what is it?


i don't like being mistreated. I will not tolerate it. i'm not some toy
i need RESPECT.
sometimes, i might be too blind to see it but when you do it too much, i notice.
You think i don't notice the little things? I do. In fact, i think those are the things i notice the most.
i'm a fairly happy person, i'm easy to be pleased but treat me right people.

on another note..
Today:
- i've been reading a whole lot on topics that have nothing to do with my classes.. its just for fun. Yes i feel like a nerd but i also feel good knowing a tad more than i did yesterday and keeping up with current events.
- tried that new aspirin&honey thing for my face and it works! my face is softer.
- Thought about a lot while cunteno played video games and i waited for my wings.
- Parmesan Garlic Wings @ Wingstop! yummy. btw. Quiznos and that other business next to it are hot headed. -___-
- walked around everywhere with Cunteno.
- Girls tennis game.
- visited Nogales High. HATE THAT SCHOOL. Mr. Anderson looks like a dike.
- Benji walked me home real quick and waited for me while i hopped into my window since i didn't have a key. walked back to school w/ him after that.
- Chilled with Val, Benji, Jimray, Edgar, Axel, and.. some other guy. had great conversations.
- btw. thank you Jackie Averia for cheering me up & distracting me from my troubles when i am down! even if that means kidnapping me. hahaha Thank you for always hitting me up, joking around, deep talks, stupid, silly things we do, going on adventures, seeing how i am at random times, and respoding through text from my tweets hahaha. I LOVE YOU!
- i had great conversations with Galo on the phone & fb, Cunteno and Benji while walking around. They're the homies.
great conversations make me go..








Its the simple things in life that bring me happiness.

late night Bowling

Hung out with Jackie, Dorothy, CJ, Gabe, David, and Forster.

"Some people make things happen, some, watch things happen and some wonder what happen?"

- I'm normally a happy person. However when people around me are all negative and shit.. that starts bringing me down. ): I'm learning how to not let that phase me.
- I always have a lot to say, i'm just either too shy to say it.. or too lazy to type it haha.. or both
- I'm not stupid. Its just sometimes, i don't know how to explain myself to make the other person understand.. I don't know the right words to make the other person see my views and such. In short, i cant explain myself; well at least i seem to think so. I feel as though i'm trapped in my own head when i cant explain myself.
- i'm indecisive about a lot of things.. i know i only get one chance and when all my options are usually something i want to do, idk what to take that will be more worthwhile!
- i can be gullible. I trust people to tell me the truth but i know that people LIE and when they do, i trust them less every time. When someone says they're going to do something but they don't even TRY,yeah bugs me.
- If you respect me, i'll respect you
- i'm shy but once you make me feel comfortable, then i start opening up.
-

I use to:
- ballet
- paint
- play the piano
- i admit.. i use to do pageants..
- be scared of my barbie dolls
- be hella conservative.. as in wear sweaters and pants in the heat because i was self conscious of my chest.. GROWING and all.. and my armpits starting to sweat. lol



BLAH JUST RANTING! got lots of thangs all up in my brain.

"shoot for the moon because if you fail..you'll land among the stars" -A.k

I've been thinking alot about my future career possibilities lately.
so far here is the plan.. of course, they are subject to change.
If i had the brains for math i'd be an architect... dammit.. but...
I REALLY want to be a dermatologist. I really like working with science and skin, hair, and such.
However since it doesn't matter what i major in in a regular 4 year college.. i'm going to major in nursing so i get my nursing degree and work as a nurse while i am on the waiting list to go to med school for the dermatology program. within that time, i can decide for sure if i really want to do it or have the time&money to pursue it.. at least i have nursing as a career already if dermatology doesn't work out right? Dermatology takes like 18 years of school.. so i'd be a dermatologist when i'm around 40 D:
I'm going to also take a real estate class online &/or pursue a career at Crostex as their sales representative. Its easy money, they pay for all your trips so i don't have to worry about wasting money traveling. And it pays REALLY good. Oh i also want to be a photographer and do makeup&hair(cosmetology) on the side.. oh secretly i want to be a choreographer too but i know thats NOT happening LOL.
In the meantime in college, i want to be a sales associate at a clothing or shoe store. If possible.. maybe even modeling :P TEHE!

Theres SO MANY careers i want to pursue but unfortunately i only have the time span one life to pursue all of them.. so i'll settle for the ones that are in my line of interests and skills.(the ones above) I don't like wasting my time on things or people that don't matter cause i can use that time to establish something worthwhile.
I know you might say, "holy crap thats alot of careers" but really, i don't want to just have one because what happens when one fails? then i have nothing.. thats exactly what happened to my mom and i don't want that to happen. I want to be financially stable individually; i dont want to have to solely depend on my husband. When i go out to buy expensive things i don't have to ask him cause i know i got my own money to spend with a lot more to spare. I want that good life. I don't want to continue settling for just the necessities in life, i want the luxuries that i deserve.

"The greatest war you'll ever face is the battle WITHIN yourself."

I've been kinda moody this week.. probably because of my period but thats no excuse why anyone should just completely disregard my feelings and put myself aside until i come out of this phase.
Usually i have those days where i'm happy the world screw me over so many times because i learned from it and it made me a better person even though i might not have things other people have.
However for the past two days, I've had those feelings when i'm angry at the world for fucking me over. Where would i be today if i had my father with me and my mom? would we be in Texas or still in Chicago? What would have happened if my mom believed in herself to the fullest and pursued a more successful career? Where would i be? What if i cant take any of this shit in this house anymore that i decide to move to NY? ( thats REALLY hard.. thats why i'm hoping Kuya Ryan gets transfered out here to SoCal) How would i be like if i grew up a normal childhood, without major family problems left and right, moving here and there, my privacy in my room(at least where i'll get to close my door), with a mother, a father and a big brother? ..What if?
None of my family problems or my unfortunate childhood is my fault. The people around me made these silly mistakes that weren't even worth creating in the first place. They don't see that they only have one life to live so they shouldn't be creating all this drama&negativity to waste on such a precious lifetime. Its not my fault that i've been exposed to these things but its good because thanks to them, now i know what i certainly don't want to experience or become in my future.
In reality, i should not think about what if's.. actually i don't, just with family matters.. I don't want my children go to through what i went through in my childhood. I want them to grow up as happy,responsible children, with a great relationship with their parents.. (hopefully). 50% of Americans go through a divorce throughout their lifetime.. I sure hope i'm part of the 50% that stay together with my husband.. I'd rather not get married and focus on my career and my cousins rather than wasting a marriage.

Friday the 13th August 2010

I felt very productive today..
- Printing out Job applications and applying online.. i ran out of ink
- Payed for college all by myself :)
- Planning on going grocery shopping tomorrow morning by myself.. I also need to find time/a ride to go to the bank and buy some stamps from the post office sometime this weekend..
BY THE WAY.. did i mention i'm going to be home alone this whole weekend!? Well minus Tito Boy but he's never home anyways! :D
- NAPS! i love them!
- Typed up some stuff and i feel motivated after reading those again :)
- Mini work out.. slowly getting back on track with that lol
- Cj was looking at his old Tumblr posts so i decided to look too and it brought back some lovely memories. (:
sadly..
- It hit me that the mother i once enjoyed talking to really is getting old and she will never be the same again.
- HOW THE HELL AM I GONNA GET TO SCHOOL ONTIME! the bus routes i found take like 2 hours cause it goes all the way around to LA THEN Fullerton. Also, i'm very nervous for my first week.. i'm a lost puppy over there D:


I'm a tad sleepy and i probably should sleep but i'm just so excited! I'm anticipating the adults' departure at 4AM! i cant waste any time this weekend! i've got to enjoy every moment of it.. Relaxing in mi casa with mah babeh<3 In the meantime.. i'll be watching Fresh Prince Season 5... sadly im almost finished with my marathon but in time for college to start so i can focus more. tata for now..

P.S. i need to blog here more often cause sometimes.. i get to hesitant to say things on Tumblr cause everybody checks that.. No one really checks this soo.. you will be my MINI Diary where i will be free to say my feeelings, get all deep and shiiiiiizz. yaknowadimeeaan? PEACE!

Determination

During college
- another job
- Dance class
- Straight A's & worst grade is a B.
- new friends..
- License soon!
- own car & sowing machine!.. and all that good shit.

a few things on my mind

- Everyone has a negative part about themselves.. you can never escape that no matter how hard you try to be perfect. everyone is never gonna stop judging people. You just have to learn not to NGAF.
- One of the things i cant stand is when people give me attitude for no logical reason at all. C'mon, watch what comes out of your mouth&tone of voice and make sure that person really deserves that. It just pisses me off.
- i hate seeing a couple in this situation: i'm not sure exactly how to explain this but.. When you two know you guys are going to be with each other no matter what so you two get too lazy to impress the other and to go on dates and do special things.. and all that stuff. Too lazy to TRY for the other person. Too lazy to do things even fun things with the other person cause hey after all.. they'll love you&be with you no matter what right? -____-

I really like architecture.. if i was bomb at math.. i would definitely become one. But then again.. i really want to be alot of things that i can never be in just one lifetime.. i want to be a marine biologist, a dermatologist, architect, physical therapist /  chiropractor, major in psychology, cosmetologist, photographer, event planner, project organizer/manager, design clothes and have my own clothing brand.., interior decorator. i really wanna be all of these things but all i can think of doing is to just do it for fun i suppose.. or on the side.. but thats a hell of alot of stuff to do on the side. ):

072010;;Tuesday UNEXPECTED CANCELATION OF JACKIE'S DEBUT PRACTICE.

Today i was finally going to go get my dress for Jackie's debut altered but there was just one problem.. I had to wait for my mother to get home so i would have money to get it done.
- woke up at 8 and couldnt go back to sleep so i just stayed up and finnished watching season 4 of HIMYM.
- Did period laundry.. period laundries are when you laundry the stuff you stained and the rest of clothes you still need to be laundried.. which sucks cause i just did laundry 2 days ago.. Did my hair while i was doing that and watching HIMHM in the kitchen. lol
- Ate nothing at home..
- Finally, went to the taylor.. picked up CJ then went to taco bell.
- We were leaving when we got a text saying "Practice is kinda cancelled... blahblahblah" so we just went home.
- But when i went to cj's house today.. i saw Lisa, Tita Lita.. and Andoy and Joshua! they're so cute. i love them.. i've missed them ):
- Groceries with mi mama..
- now i am going to dye my hair.. organize my "important stuff" binder.. then apply to some jobs as i watch Season 5 of How I Met Your Mother..
i'll come back to this later once my whole day is done and tell you how everything went..

071710;;Saturday

- Fullerton w/ Mommabearb & Cir
- Eyeglass appointment @ Puente Mall (im getting contacts and sowing machine with my own money)
- McDonalds cause CJ wanted some ._. so bad 4 u 5 much
- we went to Jackie's debt practice
- Ace's Graduation & Birthday Party thing
- Now im @ Cj's. Jamie, Francis & Laurie picked us up. We just watched Indiana Jones with his auntie and Jj. Jann and Chris just came.

Stressin' Ain't A Blessin'

.. but its always worth it in the end.

everything is so irritating to me today! Partly cause i'm also stressed -_-
- people are laggin' on confirming
: the longer i wait for people the more Party Bus are being reserved by other and i'm afraid we wont have a decent price for a good party bus
: People are bailing or aren't sure if they would go on our limo for many issues
: people aren't communicating well -__-
: i'm disappointed Joey, Val and especially Cunteno isn't going to prom
- My dress.. i MIGHT have found a better one but its expensive and no refunds on my dress. If i really want to buy it i have to find someone my size who would buy it. I like it. its just i might not be able to dance properly.. maybe i'll just lift it and wear stockings under..
- ENGLISH AND FRENCH work
- My health
- There just cant seem to be enough time
- issues.. new things i'm thinking of.. things i'm realizing.. was i blind before? or was i trying to ignore the issues because i'm afraid to bring up the issues cause you wont listen.. you'll just HEAR me ? there IS a difference. BUT bringing up some issues means your dedicated to trying your best to improve and be as great as we can be together.. iono. i think ALOT and think about things more/deeper than others might.. best way i can explain it. Thats another reason why I like underground music/ when people rhym too. Feeds the mind and makes me think.
-Picture appointments.. Im trying to take care of everything now because i don't want to do last minute yknow? -_____- hate that shit. cause everyone is going to be reserving things before some people and we wont have room for our first choice for things and we'll have to pick second best and that usually means were not satisfied aand.. a more expensive price. I don't know why people wait to communicate BETTER last minute but who am i kidding? i'm such a hypocrite about that sometimes but.. i just learned that lesson today..
- who and how the heck is going to do my hair and make up and how am i going to do agatha's.. I hope Fatima can handle us 5.. and quick. if anything i can help her do hair and make up.
- fuck it.. if we cant get a group picture at a studio then i'll ask Fawzi tomorrow.. acctually i will for sure just in case.. thats probably going to be the case anyway! In this case, Fawzi will be one of my lifesavers. I don't know why thats a problem to some people though. If he doesn't have a backdrop, we can find a nice scenery to go to to take pictures.. just like La Sierra Prom! that photo shoot was fun cause it was funny. Steve, Nick and Jlao mostly i think. dorkwods. Miss them!
- I love my friends.. and the people i'm going to meet at prom. I really want to help them as much as I can have a good time and save as much money as they can. on this night. including me.. I already feel bad enough asking my mom for all this money but hey.. i have my needs.. she always makes me feel bad.. i sort of don't blame her though.
Anyways! but yeah.. i even talked to some people to drop the drama and just have fun at least for one night.. and if anything avoid each other! just not to make it weired.. even with Kathleen.. i'm willing to drop it.. everyone is going to try their best to deal with/avoid it for one night. I've been trying to encourage some people to go but I cant force them. It really sucks how some people cant go to prom at all in their lives.. or that they cant go to prom their senior year. i'm disappointed i wont have the opportunity to enjoy it with them. But they can always join us for midnight meal though.. i'll ask!
- Room is a mess. Too busy to clean it this week.. on a more positive note.. exactly one more week til' "Shrek" is going to leave! whoop whoop. and Jill's babies! I'm happy she trusts me with her babies. ^_^

more i was thinkin bout today but i'll end this here cause i'm super tired. showatime. peace out Holmes.

p.s. sorry if its hard to understand.. i just rushed through it.

April, Patrick and puppies birthday!

Glee! i love Glee.. why wasn't i crazy about it before? I don't usually watch TV but it's become one of the shows i cannot miss! They are Glee, American Dad, Family Guy, HIMYM aand.. i think thats all.

Right now i'm trying to find a party bus with J.Belarmino.

Today.. was late.
- Chambers
- Senior Gym thing. it was boring at first but then it got fun.. mostly talked to Agatha and Mervin.
- Med Core was pretty chill. humid
- Psych. fell asleep as the period was prolonged cause doggies were checking cars for bud in the parking lot
- Lunch was cool. Got lunch with Monica and shared my burger with Raffy. I kept thinking I had Treble right after so I took my sweet ass time eating.. Junette ended up takin it to P.E.
- French 2 was alright. Aced the test and sorta practiced the dialogue with Alvaro but then he was being stupid and i got bored so me and Ale interrogated him on who he likes.
- Treble was watevers
- Shared Mervin's ipod with him while we chilled with Keith, Russell and Axel. His ipod is funny hehe i like his music. I needa steal them.
- Detention but since i was early and only one other guy came, Mr. Hodges let me leave after 30 minutes of doing homework in the little room.
- Rushed home to sleep but before I could.. Mya and Nicholas's dad was over. Talked for a bit then he left and i was able to finally have my sleep.
- Woke up to my mom informing me that Jill gave birth at lunch today
- spent alot of time with them today.. didn't even eat dinner yet.. Jill gets mad when my mom, Ben approach her.. especially Jack but she doesn't get mad when I do. haha i feel special.

So i just talked to my Grand-aunt.. shes like one of the 3 only living siblings of my Grandma.. there were 12 of them. Its really sad.. it makes me miss my family more and its even more sad how she sounds even older.. Last time i saw her she was still up and about and roaming the malls but now.. it seems as though she just stays home. She sounds so tired and she talks ever so slowly and its hard for her to hear.

Anyway, so it seems that I see my friends from church in a different light than I do with the people i see almost everyday. However I am trying to apply that to them and it seems to be going well so far! I love it. Keeping this up for sure. Also, more rest helps see things in a better light.
I really need to learn how to behave properly. I thought i already did but there are times when I need a break and i say the stupidest shit. Thats when i say stupid things that I don't even mean. Thats when i say things without thinking.. I need to use my head more often.

Personally..
I prefer calls over texts
Web Cam over calls
but above all, I prefer talking in person above all things.
I hate talking things out when you're not in person.. its no the same

I hate 1 or two worded responses when you're tryna keep up a conversation
that other person isn't giving any effort in the convo.
so you end up feeling all lame and boring cus you keep gettin' ignored.
Its also not polite.

Youth Rally 2010

Was super fun! Pre-Rally was equally just as fun. Met LOTS of new people. I forgot half of those names though ): too much names and new faces to take in all at once.
PRE-RALLY
- Ice Breaker when I arrived. First person I met was Paul who gladly helped me remember how it works. Met Karima?? and went up with her. Got intoduced to Randy who goes to Damien High with Paul.
- met more people
- Did a Cheer with the SEN10RS
- Ate with Daniel.. (not Daniel Lozada, Rommel's friend)
- placed in a group where i met: Josh Lim, Monica Rodd, Stella, Karina/Katrina, Erica, Paulina and i forgot who the other girl was i'm sorry >_< Josh was our PIMP since he was the only guy haha
- made poster with the groups idea
- Me and Monica were flooding with ideas for the cheer so we ended up changing it like a few of times which made Josh confused. haha we made some dope ass cheers!
- Halo Halo people came from their performance @ Walnut High
- watched Witness perform our skitn for the Rally. I want to be part of Witness. I'll ask more about it.

YOUTH RALLY!
- had to take the bus to St. Liz since i had no ride. Ended up being late which caused me not to get my pass.. they couldn't find mine. Busted a mission to find one. Ended up getting Nikki's since she didn't come ): My name was Nikki for a day
- Joe gave his seat for me. First sat to some guy who was boring cause he didn't cheer or anything. he was pretty shy. He was blocking me from sitting next to Stella and Daniel Lozada ):
- Raffy saved me a seat before i even got there so i moved to sit next to him, Ron, April and Joanne.
- was acctually next to people who were down to do that hiper cheer thang with me hoooray!
- Joe Melendez ( Christian Rapper) performed for us) what was weired was that he rapped the Rosary O_o but we all just went along with it anyway lol
- LUNCH: ate with the people i sat next to. met people from other churches&schools. Gave away 'SLYM LOVES YOU' bracelets to new friends.
- moshpit of doom! Giant Group hug of doom
- danced to songs that JJ Aquino was playing
- Commercials & Videos of people dancing
- SLYM's Witness crew perform our skit!
- Fr. Ricky Viveros.. HES FUNNY. i love him. he's not your average priest. alot of the priest stories i hear are kinda like his. trouble maker, never went to church, party hard, etc. then they become a priest all of a sudden. interesting
- the Exposition of the BS. Knelt & Sat but me and Raffy fell asleep a couple of times to be honest haha
- Break then workshop.
: played a different version of Mafia
- Mass. Saw the Aquino fam! Said hi to Mr. Aquino and the kids. Actually sang the songs with everybody. it was acctually a pretty fun mass :o incrediball
- St. Paul won the Spirit award! whoop whoop! Proud of them
- pictures! pictures! exchanging numbers with people. sorting rides for Applebees
APPLEBEES
- Rode with Daniel as his mom, Josh and his neice took us there. We caught up on the way. reminisced.
: 2008 years ago youth rally, I sat next to Dlow and we cried.
: 2008 AE Retreat. I told myself i wouldn't cry when I saw Dlow but tears just came pouring out when we did.. tears of happiness!
- waited outside for a while. Talked with people. Abraham,our energizer bunny got high lmao
- Party room couldn't even contain us so we dispersed into the rest of the restaurant.. Half if not most of us occupied Applebees
- Saw Virginia and Jason! and apparently Josh was there too.
- We were all so full we just couldn't wait to pass out on our beds
- goodbyes Sadly( post up my videos later )

continue this later also as i told my Penguin I would sleep already. PEACE HOMES

- Fairfax Village
- The Grove
- Americana

Prom

I'd really love to go if money wasn't an issue. I've always wanted to buy my dream prom dress from LA. I guess i can always buy one from LA on the next formal event i am invited to. (: I'd be spending time with CirJeffrey either way so i'm sure i'd be just as great.
Last year's prom was fun. So was La Sierra.. I loved meeting all those strangers. they were so nice and they became my friends for one night .

i cant concentrate. i cant stop crying. i fucked up :x

March 8th, 2010;; Monday;; Happy Birthday

Late Start
- Ditched 1st and 2nd
_ didn't do ballad
_ finished cake and got ready to attempt to look good for Cir on his birthday
- 3rd was chill. Creeper stare.
- 4th Mean Girls!
- 5th: pointless. we basically only had enough time to do an audio sponge.
- Lunch with Ariel!
- 6th: we alright i suppose.
- went home to pick up Cj's cake. Deep talk with Michael! missed that.
- Jack in the Box with Cj, Jackie, Abby. Mervin and his dad was there.
Cj's house
- Hung out w/ Anne and Katrina while Abby, Jackie and Cj chilled in the living room.
_ everybody says there annoying, maybe sometimes they can be. People need to seriously stop hating & talking crap about other for no legitimate reason. that ticks me off.
- Momma picked me and Cj up so i could treat Cj on his first time @ Applebees! Our date was chill. We don't usually go on dates so it was exciting.
- They started assembling their new T.V. down in the living room.
- MW2 and laptop @ Cj's room until everybody (Lisa, Jann, Francis, Jamie, etc.) slowly showed up to his house. Cj blew his cake
- Shooters for free coins!
- 2 rounds of Basketball. t'was a workout.


I'm sorry that your birthday ended kind of bad. Like you said, your going to get over it eventually.

I seriously need to sleep a lot more but I don't have the time and when i do.. i can't. I'm assuming its cause i fear that if I sleep, i'd always be missing out on something; something else I could have done while i was sleeping that i probably wont have time to do later when i wake. Lack of sleep is affecting my daily performance. its throwing it off track.. also my upcoming period.. i can feel it tomming since i'm recently so emotional and so vulnerable to tears.

- why the fuck do i think about these things all late and not on the spot! fuck -_- now its too late. Also, my memory is decaying slowly.. Back pains getting worse.. stomach pains.. easily exhausted.. WHY. fuck where is my doctor at? damn Sacramento. Arnold S. is a shitty governor. he belongs in movies not in the office.. dumbass. I know people don't give a fuck unless they are affected by unfair changes. I ask you, why? that shouldn't be the case. Although i'm graduating, i still care that grades 1 - 12 wont have extra curricular activities next year. thats just stupid. Also, the fact that they are cutting people's medical insurance to "save money" causing people to pay $1,050 for each visit to the doctor.
Our principal is stupid also. when we get free money, she spends it on things unrelated to school such as hotdog fiesta wtf? -_- Employees with superior positions are abusing their authority and treating individuals with inferior positions so unjust. what is going on with the world? Making idiotic decisions left and right. Decisions that should actually be common sense.

Day 52;; 022010:Saturday

- Rancho w/ John, Celine, Agatha & Ace!
_ i love car rides with Agatha mwahaha. its so hilarious
_ shot some scenes. Ace kept making me laugh whenever we were suppose to be serio
_ Ice Cream Truck. Bought Galo ice cream
_ Ong-Bak : hes churayzee he does all his crazy moves by himself without strings. i love it.
_ Park to shoot fighting scenes: made up a sneaky sneaky plan while talking to Agatha mwahaha
_ Galo's while John, Celine and Galo pick up Galo's car from the Store.
_ me and Jackie play with Baby Jackie! shes so cute. she was dancing with Elmo and showing me her toys.
- finnishes Galo's Vegi Lasagna. i feel bad. We ate all of it up and i think it was for the family to eat. :x It was bomb though. at first i thought it wouldnt taste good so i didnt get excited but then i ate some off of Jackie's plate and it tickled my tastebuds.
West Covina
_ It was a saturday night and we weren't doing shit. So we decided to go to John's house for a while to eat and chill.
_ John took everybody home.

Swear in French
“Oh, merde!”, Oh, shit!
“Va te faire foutre, trouduc” , Fuck off, asshole
“fils de salope,” “Son of a Bitch”
(C’est des) conneries! (This is) bullshit!
Batard, Bastard
Casse toi!, Piss Off
Connard, Idiot
Debile, Idiot
Encul , Faggot!
Enculer une mouche, go fuck a fly
Fils de pute, Son of a bitch
Fils de salope, Son of bitch
Fous le camp, fuck off
J’ai envie de chier ,I want to shit
J’en ai rien ? foutre ,I don’t give a fuck
Je t’emmerde! ,Screw you!
Je vais te baiser., I’ll fuck you
L?chez mon clito ,Lick my clit
L?chez mon cul, Lick my ass
La putain de ta race, Whore of your race
Mais qui diable ?tes-vous?, Who the hell are you
Merdi! ,Shit
N’exag?re pas!, Don’t push it!
Nique ta m?re, Fuck your mother
Petite pute, Little whore
Quel tar?!, What a nerd!
Sacre bleu, oh my god!
Salaud!, Bastard!
Salope, Bitch
Ta gueule , Shut up
Ta mere la pute, Your mum’s a whore
Ta mere suce des bites en enfer, Your mother sucks cock in hell
Truie, Slut
Tu d?connes ou quoi?, Are you crazy
Tu d?lires!?, Are you crazy!
Tu et un ane , Your a jackass.
Va t’empaler encule, Go fuck yourself
Viens m’enculer , Fuck me
Voulez-vous coucher avec moi?, Will you go to bed with me?
Vous ?tes (des) malades!, You people are sick!
Vous les vousco chez avec moi?, Will you sleep with me?
baise toi , fuck you
jouir, cum
le con, la conasse, la chatte cunt
manges la merde, eat shit
maudite vache, asshole/bitch/etc
mon dieu, My God!
putain, pute, whore
pute, bitch
tu m`emmerdes!, Fuck yourself!
va te faire foutre, go fuck yourself
vas faire foutre a la vache , go fuck a cow.
vas te faire enculi, fuck you
Ãa craint!, It sucks!

Day 38;; 020710: Sunday

- Woke up when Kuya Paul, Ahshohn, Wanya & Jarell arrived. Had no idea what they were doing here. apparently there was a surprise party planned for my mom.. but on a Sunday AND Superbowl? OK. I doubt Ben knows how to plan a Superbowl party let alone a regular partyso that was bound to fail. All he does is overload on food and people just sit around and gossip. How boring!
- Worked swapmeet. My first job was to watch over the girl's bathroom and check every hour. -___- Boring too so i went to go help Aaron with parking in the basketball courts. that was fun.

- Woke up when Kuya Paul, Ahshohn, Wanya & Jarell arrived. Had no idea what they were doing here. apparently there was a surprise party planned for my mom.. but on a Sunday AND Superbowl? OK. I doubt Ben knows how to plan a Superbowl party let alone a regular partyso that was bound to fail. All he does is overload on food and people just sit around and gossip. How boring!
- Worked swapmeet. My first job was to watch over the girl's bathroom and check every hour. -___- Boring too so i went to go help Aaron with parking in the basketball courts. that was fun.
- No church for us today
- Party was chill
: Francis came! i havent seen that little girl in so long! too bad i missed Ateh Lea. she left before i came. Little Jesse is just the cutest!
: napped cause i was exhausted
: Lisa couldnt come because she had no ride ):

Day 37;; 020610: Saturday

Happy birthday to my momma & Happy 10 months to my babyboo
- Momma let me hang out with Cj today since she was already going out. She said we'd just hang out Sunday
- Had a lovely hang out with my baby
: casa, McDonalds, Cj's room for some F.R.I.E.N.D.S., MW2, and funny stuff.
- Brian's birthday Party
: Beer Pong & Soda Pong
: played some funny game.
: Dave Chappel Show in Lauren's room. Hilarious show but honestly i was falling asleep
: Met Frank! hes so fat and cute
- Slept and got dropped off by Grace around 3 or 4.

I'd say today was a good day. All i've really used my debit card for is fast food. Quick summary cause im bout to KTFO. peace.

Day 36;; 020510: Friday

CAREER DAY and the unexpected rain!
- First we discussed our group's basic ideas. our group Jackie, Celine, John Belermino, Ace, Marcos, Daniel and Galo.
- career day was chill but i liked it.
: skipped 2nd to 5th period :D
: free food
: recruiting people for choir next year.
- Leslie and Sam were here! :D
- 6th went really well!
: I get so frustrated with this choir but when everybody gives alot of effort and when we all have a good amount of focus, i just never want it to end. I must admit i think i'm more comfortable singing at this hour of the day.
- Sat around with Yugioh nerds at the benches waiting for people to see w'sup
- postponed trip to Ikea.
- Went home
: watched friends and fell asleep which caused me to miss poetry and Walnut basketball game. Damn. Nogales AND Lakers lost. wthell?

Only regret: Not going to Poetry and Walnut Basketball Game with people.

Things off the top of my head:
..Please give effort to hang out by ourselves at least for an hour or two tomorrow >_< there are some things we haven't talked about in a while cause we always surrounded by people and they don't need to be getting all up in our business.
..Needa doctor and a job dammit
..I feel bad for my mom. its her birthday tomorrow and shes sick. I hope i wake up early enough to make her breakfast. Goodness knows how early that woman wakes up.
.. Happy 10 months tomorrow :)
..I need mo'food
..Your a big fucking perve. I cant move freely/comfortably in this house. -_- I wish i could sing, walk around wherever as i please, work out and what not but noo.. your a big retard and i fucking hate you for putting me through shit. although it did make me stronger.
..i miss painting! i need more paint, paintbrushes, making things and a sewing machine. might ask for one for my birthday.
..I LOVE RANDOM DAYS.
..im bored so im just ranting
.. I miss being outgoing. what the fuck happend? why am i so hesitant around friends and not when im around strangers? that shouldnt be the case. why am i only outgoing when im out of town? i should be like that wherevers i go. cheers to new beginnings!


p.s. this is dope

Day 35;; 020410: Thursday

- picked groups for Inferno Project. i acctually like my group this time and i cant wait to do the project.
- second through 8th was a drag
- Lunch was chill. Orange Chicken!
- 6th went great! but i no likey all you damn hoppo.s in there
- Cj's house with Jackie, Abby, Benji and Centeno!
: Ate, Bathroom, took a while to get Jackie's car started.
: I missed Pichu and Bella
- back to school!
: Art Room
: Painted, sang, checked out art.
: why haven't i joined art all this time? ):
- Target w/ Cj, Abby, Benji and Centeno to pass time
: Saw Jenwin&Sammy and Don&Princess!
- Jack in the box.
: used my HK debit for the first time for some those damn good curly fries.
: Centeno left
- Got dropped off @ Benji's
: Instead of watching a movie, we decided to chill and put our feet in the Jacuzzi
: Cj and Benji decided to just go in.. i couldnt ): it was very chill and relaxing though.
: Knocked out right after my relaxing shower. couldnt help it!

YAY for random days!
Oh im growing my eyebrows so i can reshape them. k bye

day 32;; 020210: Moody

- school
- Nogales Burger
- Street Fighter but got kicked out. signing the petition tomorrow tho! :D
- Pizza Supreme
- walked home by CJ
- Friends
- Homework
- and now im webcamming with my cute boyfriend<3

I really hate how im so freaking moody today. Had a series of sharp back pains and stomach pains. One minute im happy, the next im scared, or axious, or sad and wanting to cry so bad. wtf. so fast how my mood changes today. also, im very easily irritated and Short tempered today. Im gonna cry. FML. I hate delayed periods. still doesnt really have to do with all the things that are in my head though.
I really needa get some new friends. I miss the friends i have/had. what the fuck happend? the friends i really like all live far away or i just faded away from no matter how hard i try to k.i.t. fuck more on that later. im on the phone with my boyfriend. waht am i doing blogging?

Day 30;; 013010: Photoshoot & Mom's bday party

- Ahshohn and Wanya woke me up around 11am
- showered, got ready
- BIG lunch w/ Chanta;, Kuya Tony, Kuya Paul, and Mariel @ the table w/ our hands(filipino style)
- WHO THE FUCK BUYS A FUCKING ROOSTER TO BE A PET!? seriously. that thing is gonna keep me up all night. -________________- you are a fucking show off and a hangar. (haha thanks Tanisha for the term)
_ "Ateh Jessica! we got a live cock!! we gonna go have cock fights. be right back"
- Kathleen picked me and Fawzi up to go photoshooting @ Three Oaks (LOVELY HOUSES! i want one of them houses. Kuya, you did a wonderful job) then taco bell
- Chilled w/ LISA! Chantal, Ahshohn, Wanya, Tanisha, Dess and Kuya Lenz's friends' kids. Margaritas, Youtube, Friends, and The Hangover(:
- I swear Lisa is like my long lost sister. We always have these great talks that go on FOREVER. We also like & dislike the same things. She always gets a new phone cause she always looses it. what a slore. love her though <3
- cleaned up
- R.I.P. Ninang Ester's daddy ): we'll miss you

Day 29;; 3rd day of being sick

- slept in
- another day of FRIENDS and SP
- in bed all day.. reaaally boring.
- finnished my Fruit loops last night ):
- gave Jill a bath
- Party @ my house tomorrow .. i guess no more snowboarding weekend ): sigh
- drama this week.. mm... watevers
thats all for now.

I'm trying to recover as fast as I can before finals week. I ALWAYS sing when im sick for choir finals. I feel extra lazy&bored being sick & home all this time. i wanna do something -__-
So, i read your old xanga from time to time. here i am at 1 in the morning. there are a million things i want to tell you but i dont know how to make you understand these things. nothing bad though. i'm just happy i have you. You may irritate me at times and i'm sure i do the same for you but i just inlove you. I mean what couple doesn't irritate each other every now and then? im going to tell you the rest that im going to say since its alot and some stalker might read things that they shouldnt even read. OH and let me say, i now know how addicting FRIENDS is and why you stayed you stayed away for a whole 24 hours watching it. BTDUBIWANTTOGOTOAMERICANA

Day 26;; Day 2 of being sick

- Skipped school
- slept ALOT
- FRIENDS & SP
- reorganized closets.. yes i was that bored
- Webcam with mah penguin

I should have went to school today, i wasnt that bad this morning.. but NOW i am. Oh well. I just needa rest. Just hate being really bored and alone for the whole day.

i am very happy that my robo.to finally works and records stuff! :D

Day 27;;

- Didn't go to first cause i thought that i wasnt going to school
- Didn't test in choir which is why i wanted to go to school
- 3rd period.. mm i really hate that class. Justine told me Tiffany is also bored.. i wish me and Tiff would just sit next to each other in that class
- 4th: notes on Cj's notebook and just watched a disturbing video
- 5th: I like where i sit now :D
- Lunch was cool. slept on Cj's arm towards the end
- 6th: was also cool! i love it there now.. I usually talk to Jasmine, Suzanne, Justine and whoever jumps in the convo.
- FINNISHED NIGHT SCHOOL! hooraa for moi!
- Justin Jimenez, Cj (Cristine J.), and Robin Shin visited Nogales!
me and Robin caught up for a while on our old friends. me and Cristine are childhood friends ;)
- Cj walked me home so i could sleep. thank you for waiting for me to finnish Night school even though it took longer than expected :)
- took a nap

FUKC

I havent been this moody in such a long time. im REALLY sad. Fuh. alot of thinking on my part today. call me? converse with me about things. I really hate it when people just let me do the talking.. fuck i want a damn conversation TALK TO ME too y'know? give me your opinion and express your day to day thoughts and what not.. imy but i cant talk to you ):

Day 12: 011210;; Tuesday

job hunting with my bebeh today @ Puente

t'was fun. Katrina and her momma took us to Puente.
now i got a buttload of homework.. rare occation. peace out diglets

Day #8: 010810;; Friday

Disney! day dos!

Women thrive on emotions, men refuse to acknowledge. So when we arguin, nobody win. Words get in the way time and again. Sticks and stones break your bones, words break your heart.
- Talib Kweli, Love Language

blogsecret: 14148.) I'm really annoyed with the fact that I listen to people complain, but when I need to? No one listens. Some friends I have.

i need new friends
there are plenty of reasons some bad, mostly good i guess

Day #6: 010610;; Wednesday

Day #5: 010510;; Tuesday

Day #4: 010410;; Monday

First day of school of 2010




It was good! felt nice for a change

Day #3, 2010;; Sunday

Disneyland! w/ Lisa, Tita Jane, Katrina, Boyfriend, Jerel, & Jamie!

SUMMARY of the 2nd day of 2010.
- Played with Doggies and gave them a bath while i waited to get picked up
- shortest trip to Disneyland..
- Annual Passes! yay! but cant go there on weekends.. but i have a sneakysneaky plan ;D
- Parade

- Space Mountain
- Astro Blasters!

- Shared some Dole Pineapple Ice Cream w/ Katrina that turned out to be pretty good
DISNEYCALI!
- Cj's first time there YAAAAY! haha
- Tower of Terror ..
_ debated with Katrina the whole time whether we should go on or not ..but there was no point to that cause it was short and fun! we thought it would be longer.
_ wanted to ride the water ride.. oh well next time
_ Watched Alladin Play! <3 i loved the Gennie.. really funny..
_ Soarin' over California!

BACK TO DISNEYLAND
- Ride Holiday Decor w/ Babyboy <3
- Big Thunder is one of the best rides at D.land. i loved it haha
- Waited for a while for the "Believe Holiday Fireworks show" that got cancelled due to "Weather Conditions" -_- stupid the weather was perfect! no strong winds! watever
- Pirates of the Carribean ._. really boring ..
- Log ride x2 ! :D w/ Baby, Katrina & Jj
Line was too long for Indiana Jones so we decided to go take pictures by the California sign
- Got stuck w/ Cj waiting for another tram..
Everybody was asleep on the ride home .. at least i think everybody was because i was. lol

It was a very fun day and more to come! yay! I love it. I'm very tired and sleepy.. my legs are dead. time go catch up on sleep .. Goodnight! (:
Post pictures on Facebook and maybe myspace..

Day #2, 2010;; Saturday

Day #1, 2010;; Friday

New years @ Kuya Paul's house every year is always fun (;

Sherlock Holmes

- Went to church w/ momma & dropped off @ Cj's
- Went to Francis & Jan's house for pizza and what not w/ Cj, Jamie, Jerel, & Grace
- Watched Sherlock Homes <33
- Grace's house for Monopoly, movie and Beer Pong til 5am ! <3
- Nocturnal Ninjas with boyfriend <33
- went back to Baldomero house around 730am
- Cosco and Target.. BEST BUY w/ the clone mask! <33
- assembled mask and attempted @ Star Wars Marathon til Cj got sleepy and my mom called .__.

IT was a very awesome 24 hours til the last few hours. add more details after my movie hehe.

Don’t get mad when a girl cares too much. Worry when they start to not give a fuck.

i'm a pain in the ass and i'll annoy the hell out of you, but you won't find a girl who cares about you more than i do.



real talk

Wiide awake @ 4am

Just got back from a random kidnap by Jean - Luc, Ariel, NgeOo or should i say .. Mewtwo! and Marlon! Then Claude came after a while.

W e chilled infront of my house while the girls snuck in to pee and eat. Debated where we all wanted to go for the early morning hours. Marlon was our driver for the night. Jean-Luc’s car was our car. Claude took his own car by himself; i felt bad for him.

Claude led the way to The View in Walnut. I think its better than Top of the World. Much easier to get to and much cleaner! Had a nice talk with Marlon til Jean-Luc said it was time go depart. He said he was gonna make me a big house on the spot of The View someday when he’s an engineer (:

Claude also lead the way to Gingrich park but he left right after.. we really needed him. didnt know how scary it was til we went halfway up the dark trail. Then we chickened out and ran back.. had to ninja our way out of sight of passer byers.

Headed to the Haunted house full of cats! scary how everything was on the way from the lovely view. I wasn’t convinced til that white cat started going after Jean-Luc.. while the rest of us watched from inside the car of course haha. Ariel got in trouble so we had to drop her and Mewtwo off then Marlon and Jean-Luc dropped me off. Though i was very tired from my day and shower, i had lots of fun! I missed hanging out with them! and Marlon is cool too! We were missing Cj and Rina from our little group though. Its okay! we’ll take them when we can all drive because i dont think they can come out this early in the morning cause of parentals.. you know how that goes.. :/ its okay! less than a year left! woo.. so anxious ^_^

Anyways, good.. Morning. hopefully i wake up on time at 12 noon to meet up with my project. Made some plans with Mewtwo to play ball and teach Ariel but i highly doubt we are capable of waking that early in the morning especially after this morning. Good morning tumblrers (:

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LOL

Secret Santa Gift Exchange

I started my day with a lazy morning as my mom was busy finally trying to find me a dentist near here cause I haven't gone to the dentist due to the inconvenience of distance and other reasons.. I'm gonna miss having my aunt as my dentist and visiting Alhambra once in a while. The dentist took forever -_- i was getting so impatient but the wait was worth it. I got my molar tooth taken out! Yes i still have baby teeth :P Ben had another tantrum cause my mom could not leave the dentist to pick him up from the hospital -_- watever inconsiderate bitch.

Went to Khols to purchase Sebastian's present. Got dropped off @ Cj's. Chris drove us to Abby's along with Katrina. Apples to Apples. Said grace and ate.. Gift exchange! I love my present Nate! thank you oh so mucho grandes<3 Pictures pictures <3

Hitched a ride with Michelle and Alek back to Cj's and i pretty much spent the night there.. whenever i'm there.. i get awfully sleepy all of a sudden ..i wonder why O_o Cj's theory: I'm more comfortable there than home .