It’s amazing what one person can do. Some people build you up just to bend and break you. Some people bring out parts of you that you had no clue existed. All throughout life we meet people and every single one of them brings something to us, gives us some sort of purpose. We come across people that will hurt us so incredibly much that it seems unbearable to go on with our lives, but the truth is; we can overcome anything we want to if we believe in it enough, if we have faith in ourselves, in who we are. The most important thing in life is to find yourself, know who you are at all times and stand by that for the rest of your life. No one has to the right to tell you who you are and control your life, cause it’s yours. Your life is meant to be lived by no one else but yourself. We sometimes let people get the best of us, destroy us and change our opinions on what we believe is true. Only you know what’s right for yourself, you have the power, you make the choices and you learn. Each experience we go through in a life is a lesson to be learned. We all make mistakes, why is that so hard for some to understand? No one should be judged by the mistakes they have made. It’s past news. Everything happens for a reason, and without the hard times, how would we ever realize our true strength? It’s only through a time of suffering when we realize how strong we truly are inside, when we realize how much we can actually put up with and deal with before we eventually break.

A lesson to boys

Girls like a guy who can stand up for himself, because if he can’t, how can she be so sure that you can take care of her, also? We love reassurance and comfort.. and most of the time, it’s quite often. That’s never going to change. Most of the time, we’d be okay that you are with your boys, just remember not to say anything when we are with ours. We are over protective if you give us a reason to be. Treat us the way you want to be treated, which means.. no bs about the boy we were talking to or just a simple male friend we are hanging out with. If you’re gonna trip about other boys, we are most definitely gonna trip about other girls. Another given. Because two can play that game. Girls like to be held, and kisses on the forehead are so much cuter than a massive make out session in public. White crewneck and dark denims = turn on. The absolute simplest way to dress, but also the sexiest. Whoever told you that a girl’s gonna cost you your bank account is wrong. Money doesn’t buy love. A perfect gentlemen pays for all expenses, but the world is made up of flaws, so it’s okay. Take turn paying, and if she insists that you pay all the time? Leave. (Okay, maybe not, but do something about it.) Girls do spoil their guy, if the same is given in return. Homemade gifts are often THE cutest. Random visits and gifts mean more than when you are “supposed to do it (Valentine’s day, Christmas, etc.) Girls need their girls, just like you need your boys for.. whatever your reason may be. That is the absolute worst reason to get jealous over, she’s not going to turn lesbian. When she askes you for a favor, try to do it. She’ll get frustrated and you’ll end up in an agrument. Simple things like texts or a cute IM is nice, just don’t smother her. Ex-girlfriends and the past bring up a horrible subject. And although you and your ex might still be friends, make sure that your girl nows that she means nothing, that reassurance will never stop, never. And most importantly, stay consistent. Girls go absolutely crazy when you were sweet the first few months and.. soon, it fades away. Keep chasing, and when you feel like you want to stop, let her know - don’t just leave her, don’t just let her go.

From Tumblr

"WHEN IT COMES TO RELATIONSHIPS, ‘CHEATING’ IS NOT ALWAYS SOMETHING YOU DO PHYSICALLY.

I know we all have our opinions and thoughts on to what ’ cheating ’ really is, but this is my perspective on it. I’m sick and tired of people thinking js cos they not ’ sleeping ’ with the other person, it means they ain’t cheating. Bullshit. Cheating can be as simple as a simple text, call, hang out, or even thought (thinking about cheating ). You can be emotionally & mentally cheating and you not knowing it. The way you talk to your boo shouldn’t be the same you talk to another person: such as sexual content or flirtatious ways.

Put it this way, anything you know that would hurt your boyfriend/girlfriend if they were to every find out.. CHEATING. It may be “ not telling the truth ” but it’s also cheating. Don’t do shit you wouldn’t want your boo doing. It’s simple as that. Karma is a bad bitch yo. I wouldn’t wanna fuck with her."


hmm... food for thought

I Still think about you everyday..

and i just might for the rest of my life.

I wish you guys were still here next to me and sometimes, the thought makes me tear up.


I wish my two biggest role models were still here..

I know you guys are looking down from heaven watching, smiling and guiding me <3



This morning i was thinking about how much i miss my grandparents and wish that they were still here with me.  I wish i showed them and told them how much they meant to me. I showed them love back but i took for granted an old, cruel friend named Time.  I was 7 when they died and i always assumed they'd live forever til i learned about a little thing called death with my own eyes.  No one ever introduced the idea of death to me til' that happened.
   I realized that i should never take anyone's presence in my life for granted.  I never want to leave someone with a bad memory of me.  I may see them again or i might not, that is uncertain.  Anything can happen so i will try and never leave anyone with a bitter memory of me.  (add more later)

hey babe & sweet lady
are my favorite songs.

I fell for these songs.

Late night phone calls that contain amazing conversations til' the early morn'..Too bad no one has time or the convenience for that anymore..(&sometimes, that even includes me)

POINTERS i need to blog about when i get back.

• I'm not in a great mood today.  3 hours of sleep. a lot of time thinking.
• How DARE you step in my room especially when i'm here.
• Next week is a BIG week for me.. not just for school.  i'm very anxious and eventually.. nervous
• i'm always the one planning (i guess it's okay cause i'm boss like that lol but it's nice when i get a break)
• FINANCIAL ISSUES for the rest of my life... UC+MED SCHOOL+MOVING OUT+LANCER+ADVENTURES+FRIENDS = DEBT unless of course i win the lottery. sigh
• i am positive. i am one of the most positive and optimistic people out there. but i will NOT be ignorant of the issues in this world.  So don't ever call me negative.  I learned for my negative past. so i know from experience NOT to get into all that negative mess.

Some posts i never published on tumblr. they just sit in the Drafts folder.

• i`m married to tha money, but i`ll fuck the shit out of success. determination took my virginity, but i had a baby with progress, & fathered my dreams.
• I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want…a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved.
• And when I’m older and my daughter asks me who my first love was, I don’t wanna have to pull out an old album. I want to be able to point across the room and say “he’s sitting right over there.”
• You very rarely get everything you want in life. But when you don’t fight for it, you have even less of a chance. So here I am. Fighting for you.
• “Maybe shes not the most beautiful girl in the world, & maybe shes not the brightest crayon in the box, But shes real, without even trying; That right there is real beauty.”
• Its not that I don’t care. Don’t get me wrong. Its just that I’m at that point where I’m not letting these nonsense things get to me anymore
• “I spend 23 hours a day wondering whether we’re wrong for each other, wondering whether we’ve got the energy that we need to get through everything that we seem to get into, whether the baggage we both bring would sink a small ship. But in the 24th hour, I realize I’ve been thinking about you for 23 hours. There’s something about you I can’t stay away from. Something about you, that makes me want to love you.”

— Gerascophobia

• “ I’ve learned this past year. I’ve changed, I’ve grown. Maybe things do happen for a reason, maybe they don’t. but no matter what, they still happen. That’s what we need to remember. I learned to stop analyzing things, to just let them happen. And if I get hurt, or if something bad happens, then it happens. There’s nothing I can do to change that. I’ve learned to go with my gut, and that it’s okay to make mistakes because the ones that matter, won’t care. I’ve learned that love really is as great as they say it is. I’ve learned that your friends can save you from your worst enemy: yourself. And most importantly, I’ve learned that today is all we have.

• ‘It’s amazing what one person can do. Some people build you up just to bend and break you. Some people bring out parts of you that you had no clue existed. All throughout life we meet people and every single one of them brings something to us, gives us some sort of purpose. We come across people that will hurt us so incredibly much that it seems unbearable to go on with our lives, but the truth is; we can overcome anything we want to if we believe in it enough, if we have faith in ourselves, in who we are. The most important thing in life is to find yourself, know who you are at all times and stand by that for the rest of your life. No one has to the right to tell you who you are and control your life, cause it’s yours. Your life is meant to be lived by no one else but yourself. We sometimes let people get the best of us, destroy us and change our opinions on what we believe is true. Only you know what’s right for yourself, you have the power, you make the choices and you learn. Each experience we go through in a life is a lesson to be learned. We all make mistakes, why is that so hard for some to understand? No one should be judged by the mistakes they have made. It’s past news. Everything happens for a reason, and without the hard times, how would we ever realize our true strength? It’s only through a time of suffering when we realize how strong we truly are inside, when we realize how much we can actually put up with and deal with before we eventually break.’

• Those who claim to not feel pain prove to be the weakest individuals amongst us all. It takes real pain to show what one can truly amount to in the worst of times. I guess that’s why they say that pressure is either going to bust pipes or make diamonds.
• Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves. 0 Comments October 3, 2009 Things don’t change; we change. 
•  Hell is what you choose to call the present, that’s why we’re going through it, i just choose to call it stressin. 
•  To be happy, you simply must stop taking advice from other people.
• The greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones that swept you off your feet and challenged your ever view. The ones where you found yourself to be a better person because of who you were when he was around. The ones that made you wake up with a smile on your face no matter how corny it was. The ones that made everything right when it was wrong. the ones that caused you physical pain to leave because leaving meant losing a part of yourself.
  
  The greatest relationships are the ones you’ll always remember not because of their length, but because of who you were with. The ones where the memories make you want to laugh when you’re crying. The ones that make you believe that god exists, because no one else could have created someone so amazing. The ones that cause you to change for the better, even if you don’t realize it. the ones where you know you’re being honest with yourself, so much it hurts.
  
  The greatest relationships are the ones where he called you lame and you just rolled your eyes because you knew he was kidding. The ones where you were comfortable around him because you knew he’d love you no matter what. The ones where love seemed to be the only answer. The ones that made you compromise because it was something you knew you wanted to last. The ones where you accepted what he did because you just wanted to see him happy.
  
  The greatest relationships are the ones that changed your life. The ones that made you rethink your future because you knew it’d be better with him. The ones where you felt like your forever had finally appeared. The ones that made you question the ending. The ones that told you to push through the problems because eventually it would be better again. The ones where you broke your heart and his for his good, even when you couldn’t explain without breaking a rule.
  
  The greatest relationships are the ones where you care more about his happiness then you do about your own. The ones where you do what you do for his future, even if it means wrecking your present. The ones where you tell yourself to walk in the opposite direction, because you know there are just some things you can’t do. The ones when you cry not because it’s over, but because you know you lost not only him, but your best friend too.
  
  The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll thank him for being a part of your life, no matter how short. The ones where you’ll never forget him because he helped shape your view on love. The ones where you’ll always be there for him, whether or not he’ll accept that. The ones where he put up with your crap when he didn’t have to. The ones where your last tribute to him was doing something he never thought you’d do - and loving it.
  
  The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll always love him, even when he’s forgotten all about you. The ones where you’re changed forever because of him. The ones that you will always smile about because while they were flawed, they were still amazing. The ones where you fought what you knew was going to happen because you couldn’t quite come to terms with losing him. the ones that remind you love lost is better than never having loved at all.
• “When a man hurts you, mentally, physically, or emotionally, he does not deserve you. He is telling you that your beauty was made for him and that he has control over it and you. No man has that power.”
• “If you dress nicely, he says you’re a snob. If you dress sexy, he says you’re a slut. If you argue with him, he says you’re stubborn. If you’re quiet, he says you’re stupid. If you call him, he says you’re needy and clingy. If he calls you, he says you should be grateful. If you don’t love him, he’ll try to win you. If you love him, he’ll leave you. If you don’t fuck him, he’ll say you don’t love him. If you do, he’ll say you’re easy. If you tell him your problems, he’ll say you’re irritating. If you don’t, he’ll say you don’t trust him. If you lecture him, he’ll say you’re bitchy. If he lectures you, it’s because he “cares”. If you break a promise, you can’t be trusted. If he breaks it, he had to. If you cheat, u expect it to be over. If he cheats, he expects to be given another chance. Either way…you never win.”
• A good girlfriend doesn’t question and constantly check up on her man when he’s out; A good boyfriend will check in with his girl to let her know what’s up and that he misses her.
• “You’re beautiful and you don’t know it. You’re smart and you don’t believe it. You’re the kind of girl that guys don’t get over. You’re the kind of girl that other girls get compared to.”
• “ The best part of having a relationship is getting to call the person or lay down next to them and tell them all the crazy things that happened to you all day long. And in the end that’s what it’s about, kids. It’s not about the sex, it’s not about the money that they give you or whatever. It’s not about how good-looking they are, it’s about, can they listen to you talk for hours and hours and hours about stupid shit that doesn’t matter. And if they can, then you’re meant to be together forever. Even if that means you have to call them 100 times, that’s okay. ”
• “we are afraid to care to much; for fear that the other person does not care at all”
• I use to look up to a lot of respectable people.  But they have all failed me.  They all have done NOTHING for me.  I learned that the only person I should look up to is myself.  I am the one who has the choice for my future.. I am the one who makes things happen for myself .. not no one else but myself.
• When i started flirting with Hustle, Failure became my Ex, Now i’m engaged to the game, and married to success
• for you do not know what will happen tomorrow. what is life?  it is like a vapor that is here one moment and gone the next  --James 4:14

• “STAY TRUE TO THOSE WHO HAVE ALWAYS STUCK BY YOU AND FORGET THOSE WHO ARE ONLY AROUND FOR THE GOOD TIMES.”
• The only people you need in your life are the ones that prove they need you in theirs.
• "Guys say they want a girl who is real. but when she tells you everything straight you can’t handle how blunt she is. so you call her a “bitch”, and say she’s too controlling. if you can’t handle the heat, stop making excuses and get out of the fuckin’ kitchen"

These type of people ruined me.

I started gettin’ real w/ them then they complain and stop talkin’ to me.  You wanted me to be real and tell the truth and be all up front right? then stop bein’ a baby.

• I’m a little dysfunctional, you’re the problem. Please don’t awaken me, and I’m that way cause back in the day, most have forsaken me.
• “
  People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
  A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
  A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.
  ————-This bothers me because it’s not sited correctly. Although this is one of my favorite passages in the book, LIZ did not say this. DAVID FROM TEXAS did… okay goodnight
  “
  Eat, Pray, Love. Elizabeth Gilber
  ”
• Its funny .. It takes more energy to text rather than call.  So, when people claim “i’m too lazy to call” its a lie.  Something else is clearly stopping them from making that call.  Whatever the reason may be, they are masking it with the stupid excuse of “i’m lazy”
• My motivation: Picturing myself driving my dope ass Lancer w/ some bangin speakers playing my jams.  Confident and knowing I have all th
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Some things in my draft folder i never sent to twitter.. because i have my reasons. Either they were too long or other reasons.

• Late night phone calls that contain amazing conversations til' the early morn'..  Too bad no one has the time or the convenience for that anymore
• Gonna push it to the limit give me more.
• Ah.. music just gets me to my happy place. no matter what genre
• I love my family and my brother<3 yes, you're good enough to deserve the title
• let's Kinect! ;)
• I'm torn between choosing Chicago and LA as my #1 favorite city
• I like being busy. It keeps me on my toes and i never get tired
• I always just wanna burst out at random times and dance & sing.. even in public :x
• I feel special when someone attepts to express how much they genuinely love the way i THINK.. how my mind works
• Love all, trust a few. Do wrong to none
• Sleep is so precious. i will try to never miss an opportunity again.
• "remember the magic in our lives"
• "i swear there si an angel missing from heaven tonight and that angel is mine" awwh! cuutes (: from Briahn's song.
• Itching to get out of this boring area/place
• lmao Briahn: "Hi i just called again to wish you a happy Racist Friday"
• overheard someone on a phone call "hey are you around? cause i'm around" lol wtf
• let me love you acoustic <3
• It is what it is
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I really need to step up my game so much in math.. >_< i embarrass myself..

i love how Big Bang's(and Tae Yang) music videos always have a GOOD story line that's easy to understand.. even though i don't know Korean, i know what the song is about cause of the music video.

WOOOOWW... she married the cock block.. just.. WOW.

Tae Yang's haircut really bugs me haha