not anymore

today was acctually a great day exept for that thing that bothered me and what people kept saying .. anyways!
-last day of CST! whoohoo!
i woke up at like 6:20am and russhed to shower and stuff .. thankfully i made it on time.
1st period was okay. we continued watching Raisin in the Sun as Mr. Farnsworth constantly paused the film to get off topic and waste time.. as usual
2nd period was a breeze as i pretended to have my book again. I need to get to school earlier so i can get my French stuff
3rd period was okay. we pretended to clean chavez's room. Benji was stuck on Bob's Journey for a bit on my phone.
4th period was chill. Me and Daniel had a great talk once again. He's a great person to talk to (: always makes me feel better about stupid shit and gives HONEST opinion on things.
lunch; Ngeoo and I decided to go to CVS to buy .. Frazier tagged along. Its so fun sneaking out :P
5th period we watched part of supersize me. That movie is gross
6th period "Father Charles Went Down And Got Bananas" learning notes is frustrating but fun.
7th period was good. OH SHIT i forgot to call Michelle to have our talk today .. tomorrow for sure.

Sometime in the Afternoon after all my arrends .. Cj came over! (: we took a while picking out what movie to watch but we decided to watch a Korean Movie "Seducing Mr. Perfect" interesting movie it was . it was fun

The Sun Shines on Everyone

I like old fashioned letters and old fashioned courting (:

Yesterday was fun. we had a lazy day after the 7/8 am 3 mile jog.
last night was fun. Cousin's were over but went out with Lisa, NgeOo,Ariel, & Cj to go party. saw people
Lisa slept over! we planned to stay up late but that failed cause we were dead.. just knocked out once we hit the hay. lol

We woke up early like @ 7 am O_o im sore! Today i just plan to go to church with mommy and do hw, study and essays .. AND my Brussels Presentation :O Crap i havent even started.
Well Lisa's Dad came too early to pick her up -_- EARL BROUGHT MY PUPPY! i cant keep him yet though.. He still gets milk from his mommy. maybe in two weeks or so i'll pick him up. I'm going to love May(: Just not really looking forward to my birthday for some reason. Never really seem to end up how i want to.
I cant wait to pick up my dog from Lisa in 2 weeks. (: i love him so much! He is fat & walks like a penguin LOL he waddles. SUPER CUTE! i just cant find a name for him yet. Me and my mom disagree on names. she wants these like retardo names so i just named him BABY for now til we agree on a name. Im going to take him on walks and sleep with him and stuff :D haha

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2am 4/27

Me and Lisa have planned to go to more parties and raves this summer with Samantha & Suzanne. them and their British accents. i miss them. ANYWAYS.
The highlights of my day was chillin with the Lao's after NOT seeing them for like .. 3 years!? gosh its been so long. ANND most especially Ben leaving was such a blessing .. After shopping they came over and our parents conversed & catched up while me, the twins & Jlao chilled in my room. the twins are having a sweet sixteen and so im going to be in their little dance. im exited to make new Riverside friends again! i kind wish i stayed there; i would have better grades straight A's like 8th grade.. but then again i wouldnt have met close people in this area if i did stay.

I HAD A GOOD WEEKEND .. besides the stupid bitch who annoys me. but nothings gna bring me down no mo'! Thats a promise to myself im keeping. so .. F it! lifes too short to let just 1 person/situation bring you down especially stupid ones. i feel so blessed(: STAY HAPPY MOTHAFUCKA. F THA BULLSHIT thats what i keep telling myself. but there are those rare times when its very hard to do so.

today is so weired
i shouldnt let it bother me because im a nice and im not selfish
but it is
and for crying out loud i have the right!

too much hw in so little time

Us Against the World

back from spring break.

School was okay. I was looking forward to have a GRRREAT day but things here and there pissed me off and stuff. Besides that it was a pretty gooooooood day. Im feeling happy/anxious/ excited all the time about the days to come & the future. BUT ITS SCARY! oh well. ANYWAYS! Went to Michael's, In n Out then to Rina & Regina's house to do prom hair and try on dresses! and to talk of course! :) i love mah best friend. OH! it was Alex's birthday today.. she brought Chocolate cheesecake and stuff lunchtime.. very tempting but i dont know why i didnt get any O_o its okay.
SPRING BREAK! was pretty chill. slept and got ALOT of rest which was good. Health got better over break.

Monday: i was in an awkward .. position but the beach was fun.


wow. i feel like i was such a horrible person BEFORE.
watching so many people around me just waste their lives and their time on useless things. I really hope i wont be wasting my time on unnecessary things/emotions/thoguhts anymore when i could be doing something more useful with my time.

AE MEETING TOMORROW! im excited (: i miss SLYM so much. Theres lots of new people now i know for sure. Time to meet some new faces! exciting(:

ooh! i painted my nails HOT PINK (: im starting to be okay with the color pink and other strange colors. haha

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im hungry but kitchen is too far away -_- wow. i feel like a fat person inside seriously.. especially next to Kent. He smokes and still runs 4 miles and stuff everyday??? well i miss him. i miss lots of people.

fuck i just had alot of thoughts in my head i wanted to type down right now .. i forgot. Living in Canada seems interesting.


i'll continue my thoughts tomorrow if i have time. i just remembered what i was going to type but i'll save it for tomorrow. IM TOO HUNGRY! its 12 and CST is tomorrow. wtf. i was planning on sleeping at 10. aim and hw kept me up. -_- oh well it was fun. :D todays good.

Have a little faith in me

slept @ 3 cause i couldnt sleep. my brain was overflowing with thoughts and thinking.. but then milk always makes me fall asleep so i drank some.

IM INLOVE WITH JASON REEVES SONGS! thanks alot Rina.
first it was "just friends" then is i started listening to his playlist.
its been playing since last night til' right now.i spent my morning laying around my bed cause i was sleepy and hungry .. but lazyiness overpowered the hunger. i wanted to write really bad so i wrote you something. Gosh im corny but i like writing letters now! SO WHAT.

i cant help but think .. Im soo lucky. Very lucky for tons of reasons. also very lucky to have the opportunity to have a second chance to make everything right and i certainly SHOULD NOT RUIN THIS CHANCE this time! well life is still kind of still in that shithole but im slowly improving myself everyday. (:

today was a very odd day ..

I woke up @ 6:30.. so i had to rush to school ..
1st period was acctually okay today. Me, Mhariel, her friend, and Ashley talked instead of doing work haha
2nd period i was doing chemistry work since we had a sub. it was that one filipino lady who usually subs for choir & plays the piano.
3rd period came. i had a very pleasant surprise laying on my desk! too bad i could not respond .. It was really cute though.

mm .. afterschool ..