Speak to mee through music

Juust sayin
For example, if you wanna get me in the the mood to dance, blast somme music. Upbeat. Also, I play upbeat to make me move faster when i walk, clean, etc.
If you wanna get me in the mood.. Play some r&b love songs or sexy songs. Nawhatimsayin!

If you wanna left mme know how much i mean to you, dedicate a meaningful and powerful r&b song to me. The best is when you sing to me and mean every word and note that comes outta your mouth

In English class pot luck

It's been a while since I've been on here. I miss it but I don't have time. Lately, I've been knee deep in homework, work, studying and need for sleep more than ever. I miss performing. As each day goes by, my crave to learn a dance routine keeps growing immensely. Sometimes when i stay up at night I have the urge to juust go on my patio dance floor and just flow.. But then I do that best when music is blasting and unfortunately, I can't do that at night. I still wish i had time and approval to re-learn how to play the piano. I recently had a dream of the perfect house on the beach with a perfect room for myself. Ahh if only. If you haven't noticed, i love to freewrite. Doing this more. I hope I'm not lying to myself when I say that :x

I know it's naive to say but I still believe in those sappy happy endings in movies

FUTURE REFERENCE

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breaking away from the everyday norm routine.
This is the closest thing I can get to a vacation around here.

I'm very picky

with whom I want to be close to.
And most especially with whom I date.
You see, i'm old fashioned
I get bored too easily
I hate routines.
Always wanting to try something new and do something every second of the day instead of just sitting all the time.

I don't like people who aren't real around me

I don't like people who tell me what they think I want to hear
Honestly is key.
I'd rather take the truth
than live on a lie

Underappreciatted

Is what I feel like.
but that's okay.

What exactly do you like about me that makes me unique?

is what i want to ask you.
But i dread the reaction you will have..
cause sometimes, i don't think you know me as much as we both think.

Confession#6: Sometimes, i just want to start everything all over again.

But one of the things i wouldn't change would be meeting you.

Sometimes, i just want to delete majority of my fb friends(because that's the closest thing i have to starting all over w/o loosing my closest loved ones & moving to a strange place alone) and keep my closest friends and family. but that would probably only leave me with 100 friends.

Confession#5: I never stop yearning for more.

Sometimes, things seem perfect
but i get scared cause nothing is every perfect
or when i'm too happy, something in the future is going to ruin it and make perfect happy moments imperfect.
but other times, I just want everything better.

when really, imperfection is perfect for so many reasons.
examples:
- bad times&people will never make you appreciate the good times&people as much
- you will not learn anything if you don't fail first

I would just like to tell someone..

How i LOVE my job (:
well.. so far. but i love my co-workers! <3
Also like how it gets busy. Yes it's frustrating and embarrassing when i mess up but i love the challenge and not being bored.
best of all, hello $$$$$$$$$
Although it might not be much now, it will add up later.
This also helps my time management skills and saving up and focusing on school and saving $$
I'm on my way to being on top of my game.

Confession#4: You're a special case of "you don't get what you wanted. Instead, you get what you NEEDED, deserved and so much more"

Confession#3: Naked in my room

for about 30 minutes already lol been taking phone calls like this (awkward)

it feels good to actually be able to have the freedom to do this and have my door closed for once.  It's definitely strange to me of course since i haven't done anything like this before.  Except for those few 5 minutes i'm naked OUTSIDE of the shower tryna rush putting lotion on so i can finally put my clothes on.

NO BUENO

Doing a 4 page essay last minute while you are sleep deprived with cramps..

need better time management skills.. i guess i was wrong about mastering that already

Confession #2: When i'm very frustrated or really angry, i tend to want to cry/tear up and in some cases.. i do.

Confused..

with my emotions.

Interesting people..

Everyone & everything on earth is fascinating in my opinion..
i don't like the lazy, constant, routines, etc.... anyway..

I'm not attracted to good looking guys.. I mean, i do have my opinion on who's cute/handsome/hot and what not.. but i'm more attracted to men PEOPLE who are interesting, down to earth&kind& helpful/thoughtful&understanding, open minded, silly/sense of humor, out going and have a lot of hobbies and etc.. just like me!  

great example: my strange attraction to Travie Mccoy :P I want to be his friend!  I'd love to go out to Africa w/ him to save people w/ the Lazarus Effect.

i'm picky with whom i allow to be a close friend.

I solemly swear

To never put myself to any form of depression or be upset for a long period of time every again.  Why?
because i am happy with myself and my flaws. If anyone keeps me upset, they are no good so i'll just drop them. Sorry.


i should probably go into more detail about this (cause it makes me sound like a total bitch but i'm not. i've just learned a lot through rough times) but i'll leave it at this for now..
I don't want to spend too much time right now elaborating my thoughts at a computer..
or a human being reading this who wont even take the time to ask me the necessary questions to get to know me better.  The one who wont have the time or thoughtfulness of having a deep talk with me or discussion about life or anything in general.
I just had to post this so i wont forget to do so later on.
BYE.<3

I LOVE this!

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Ingredients for love