Dear Lord help me wash the demons out

LOVE it.  I actually want this played at my funeral one day O_O


Today; i was a terrible person. Why?

• Accidentally stole from CVS.
• Didn't sleep enough lately nor am i healthy which is causing me not to pay full attention to my everyday shenanigans.
• ASDFGHJKL; goodness i need to shut my mouth sometimes.  The things i mean to say don't come out and the things i DON'T mean to say are the ones that do come out..
• r diupgybfvdsgerp`io[uckbj fmd0univjkh
• thinking too much.. AGAIN. -__- my period must be comin'  ):
• Lost my card.. STUPID STUPID ME.
• constantly calling BOA to report this emergency and not being helped led me to take out my frustration on the lady on the other line constantly telling me to call back after 3 hours.  Very wrong because it wasn't her fault at all and whenever Ben does this, i always think its ridiculous and unnecessary.  But now look what i've done.  I've done the exact thing that i despise.  Also, i was just thinking today, 'I like giving strangers smiles or small greetings because sometimes, something that small can make their day.  They might have a rough day or a rough life and i can just put a spark and give them hope.  I know that when people do that to me, the little things they do make my day so i'll do the same'   This totally disregarded that decision. -____- 

What a day to bring out the evil monster in me.  God is seriously challenging me and i have failed..
I know you might think this is a little ridiculous to make a big deal out of these little mistakes but its a big deal to me because i'm trying so hard to be the best person that i am but today was a reminder that i'm not that good.  I still have evil demons within me and i have failed at washing that away.  I do realize we are all still sinners regardless of how much we try.  I'm okay with the little sins that i don't even notice but the mistakes i made today, just made me realize i'm not trying hard enough. i'm still unconscious the little things i do.
Lesson learned:  Anger and frustration leads to nowhere.  It affects your judgement so that you do thing and say things you don't mean to say or do.  But sadly, you can never take that back once you've done it.  So when i'm angry, i'm going to refrain from people or talking at least.  until i sleep it off or work out til' i get over it. I need to watch what i say even more.