missing enthusiasm and adventure.. i need it all back

i miss all the unexpected plans and how fun it all turns out.
I need to get out of this town .. this area. At least for the weekend or something. I kinda hate this area and my school a bit but its better than the super ghetto area. People are surprised when i say i wanna go to FJC if i go to a 2 year first. Yea Mt. Sac is just right there but its just like high school all over again.. plus its so crowded you dont usually get the classes you want. eh. we'll see.

today.. BORING day at school.
Went on a date to McDonalds with Babyboy.. Grease concert was pretty fun. Gave Rico the leftovers of my Angus 3rd Pounder. I saw.. SAM! she gave me .. news -_- saw.. Chris and Joel who also watched! :D I WISH I WENT TO WALNUT HIGH SCHOOL. i'd have soo much more fun there. oh well .. short blog.. perhaps i'll continue after another episode of SP.... im soo sleepy but... INTERNET IS ADDICTING! i missed this! BYE! :d

HAPPY 6 MONTHS MY PENGUIN

School was boring as usual.
woke up late and took a "quick" shower.. 5 min. late to 1st but i could care less today. woke up too late to make cupcakes which is why i'm going to make some tonight
1st: was ok. the books were kinda entertaining i must admit.
2nd: waited outside as 2 of the guys tried out for beauty school drop out i believe. Ate halloween oreos w/ milk w/ my babyboy(:
3rd: was aight. took the Red Cross Card test thing
4th: was funny as usual. talked to Tino about halloween plans. took notes and saw a video.
5th: texted fawzi. 2 guys that annoy me now -_- Karla and her friend are cool sauce though (: we keep track of our monthsaries.. 4:alvaro and his gf, 8th for me and cj, 18th for Karla and her man! yay! were cool haha. they remembered so they greeted me. formed a circle and passed the ball around to a french rap song ahaha. Oh! and were creating dialogues w/ a partner. Kinda funny dialogue.
8th: people to the right side of the class engaged in some straaaaangeee convo. about people and their virginities and how some girls lost it .. STRANGE GIRLS, AAANYWAYS. .
LUNCH: sorry baby got bored.. i helped Ariel finnish her hieroglyphics and talked as i colored and traced it.
6th: was acctually good-ish.. had great conversations with ading Justine baby!

Met up with my babyboy after school .. craved some chilicheesefries and he wanted thai ice tea so we decided to go satisfy our hunger before the park.
after an hour or so of food coma, we walked to the park and chilled on our spot again(: i love days like these.. when we just chill at the park or somewhere. truly missed it! i gave him my surprise. i love passing time with my boyfriend. its fun being bored together<3 we saw a husky! and a bunch of cute doggies.

Lisa the bitch called and said she was at my school for a volleyball game.. but i wasnt even there! D: i was kinda saaad she left school early so i couldn't see her..oh whellz.

we stayed til around 6:30 .. it was freezing! i should have worn shoes and a thicker jacket.. silly me. Momma dear picked us him with the dogs! when we got home we walked them .. IRAN w/ Jill.

I HAVE LOTS TO DO TONIGHT! PEACE. expect me to be on this more often again.

i LOVElove love THIS WEATHER<3 hmm.. the white coat or the leather jacket? that is the question. :o

I..

will stop being lazy and acctually go with my plan months ago to still write my everyday happenings here.

tumble!

i got a tumblr guys! :D
im se excited! i love it cause its twitter AND blog all wrapped up in one with extra stuff.. AND i can blog on the go! perfect for someone who cant reach the computer as often as they'd like. theres so much i want to put on there idk were to start!
i'll still use blogspot.. i will prove you wrong O:<
jeskalovee.tumblr.com


i Spent the afternoon and evening with my boyfriend :D
We ended up postponing watching a movie for tomorrow..
We spent the afternoon at mi casa: tried to learn how to reject, talked&took a nap<3, THOUGHT about cooking but decided to go to McDonalds to be little pedophiles.
Interesting/unique people always come into McDonalds.

I'm a little happy that we wont be going to a party tomorrow night.. But i cant wait to party with Daniel for the first time! :D

Jlao texted & called me out of nowhere.. I've missed you! I made him get a tumblr :P
i can easily quote alot of shit from our conversations. just like.. :
"Jealousy never gets anyone anywhere"-JLao
"Ay! im so chismoSA......!"-Jlao
"You know when you tell your best friend/friend something that was really meant for someone else but you can never tell that someone else because your hesitant/shy/scared of what might happend? You SHOULD tell that someone else because that is when you guys start communicating.. that is when you guys will know where you actually stand. And if it goes bad, things go wrong/bad or get harder to make relationships and people stronger" -- Me

Everytime I close my Eyes

i dont feel like blogging in paragraphs cause im rushing. so tired lately! :|

07/06/09;; MONDAY ---- HAPPY 3 MONTHS.
I was late to school but surprisingly, Mr. Bergslien didn't give me the whole speech he usually gives people. He was actually cheerful O_o
Helped the Nacho Stand and "sketch the wall"
Texted boyfriend til' he left the harbor. i hope you had fun & took pictures(:
Was really early to Mt. Sac So i sat. it was burning hot! ):
"Malibewww" - Mario. we lost Amy today.
Chill outside my house with Ateh Kris & Fraz.
Mervin owes me Poker Lessons
Whisper voice: "cmon, get in. i wont hurt you anymore. i have food"
serious moment: "you see.. we have this quote we live by .." (3 minutes pass) ".. shit. what was that quite again?"


07/07/09;; Tuesday
I'm in a MUCH BETTER mood today; despite the fact that im super tired & sleepy ):
Stayed to Chill & watch people sketch wall.
Me & Ryan went to go buy the girls Boba and to smell Mexico
Math was even longer and more boring. i hate those long problems! they take forever.

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i hvent blogged the rest of the week but all i have to say is that i have definitely matured alot this week. Im so proud of myself. So i made some resolutions.
i'll make a separate blog about all that when i get home tonight.

Millionaire

Today was super fun!
Had my very first trip to Brea Mall<3
i LOVE IT THERE! i have a good reason to save my moneys now.
Frazier may have gotten a ticket.
Ateh Kristine looked hot.
Saw Regina & Rina
Made Pesoy look gay. THANK YOU VERY MUCH BTW! (:
Bought a couple dresses but i must go back to buy some more stuff.
Had to leave cause Frazier was hungry and I took forever in Forever 21 hehehe
Saw Step-Sister&cousins-in-Law

i honestly want to get to know your gf.
she seems just like me from what you've been telling me.
IM TIRED! goodnights<3

To Defy the rules of gravity

Ngyehehehe
My stomach is a beast up in this motha
Sardines
Friends in the background (;
- "lets do it tomorrow for Valentines day"
h.w.s O:< yea i DO mind mothasucka
momma's fren's casa. met some people!
where my dugs @?
thats what she saids
Til' there was you
etc. etc. too tired to type the rest

i love you baby very much
.. and ill miss you even more than i've missed you lately



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July 5th Morning:

There are just some things you cant avoid no matter how hard you try.. so I'll just stop avoiding cause thats just wasting my time. lets have fun and Enjoy life.
LETTING MY FUCKING GUARD DOWN. aalllmost all the way. (:<

: BREA! with my shopping buds (:
: perhaps visit their fam. i miss them so much.
: Church with my Babyboy
blog about my day tonight (: peace


Paradiso Girls - Patron Tequila.
search that song homes. thats my song! :D

Cross fingers

i miss yous more than anything.
ive been missing everybody and everything
i thought i was trying hard enough to go back to my old self
but the more i try the more i fail.
i guess i need to put extra effort this time.
everytime im reminded of yous i feel refreshed and inspired
motivated to go back to the place were i started and visit.
my pride and jealously has been getting in the way of everything
ive been surprised about the things ive been learning about myself lately
but most of all disappointed. im changing that.
ANYWAY
ive been itching to play basketball and soccer!

F-R-I-E-N-D-S

Due to my recent irregular outings at night AND hanging out with NgeOo,I've caught a high fever of about 105 from Sunday til Wednesday. i now have an inhaler, and a few pills i need to take temporarily for treatment.



I feel much better today. thanks to the massage, medication, the talks, and the sleep this week!
however i've realized that i've been pondering about our thang lately.
Also, a few people have been pissing me off alot lately. All this has caused me to be very irritable. But im sure i figured out myself today(: i love friends (the show and the people) :D

Dark Weather

Dam you NgeOo.. got me and King sick.

THIS WEEKEND: went to a party in Walnut.. then to West Covina and came back,
when people started dancing at around 12.. they shut it down. wtf is that.
anyway .. went home from "watching a movie with NgeOos cousins" hehe
got picked up then went to the top of the world. i had to sneak out my window
Then other people came. i missed them. we just chilled outside my house. Reminisce about last summer. Told each other stories. Dongsang :D

sweet memories

1 GIANT POSTER for NgeOo
5 shirts for 5 seniors
4 letters > 2 orders of long ones

writing letters is so depressing..
it hasnt really hit me yet but i guess its doing it very slowly

update after!

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i want to phone w/ someone right now..
acctually thats how ive been feeling lately.

Hurt So Good

MojoMojo
Powerfuck girls
feet burn
Jerking & Shuffling
Stole NgeOo's first kiss
Hot Korean Noodles
Blogtv
etc.

Today was really fun. Spent afterschool @ Choir Taco stand after Cj's presentation. GOOD JOB! :D Then migrated to the benches and NgeOo's house w/ Ariel, Cj, David Russell & David til about 10:30! I really wanna learn the ukulele rather than the guitar. i can acctually wrap my fingers around the neck and reach the strings MUCH easier. Then evenually we got to tickling each other and i kicked SOMEONE's crotch.. twice! D: i feel really bad but it was on accident .. i have really bad reflexes. thanks ngeoo.
welp .. im very sleepy and i need to take as much sleep as i can get cause i hardly get any. GOODNIGHT.

Model Productions

my Blogtv account is: jeskaa23


Today was FUN.
We were late to our Fashion / Talent show but thas okay! rescheduled @ 5.
i kind of believe this ish want real. waste of my money. Oh well it was still fun.
McDonald's rap & Chasing Pavements ACapella. I think we were the oldest people in our group LOL. there were these cute little kids! One little boy bucked sicklike. One 2 year old ran up and down the catwalk. 1 little girl we made friends with did the Hanna Montana dance thing. and many other cute kids. Then we chilled @ my place.. suppose to make shirts but got distracted by blogtv and sweets! oh the shugarush. anyway. im tired. GOOOODNIGHT.

You the Fuck'n Best

I am very pleased with my day today.
I guess i work best when i loose some sleep O_o maybe ..
Im really Sorry I couldnt go to Bishop Amat Concert. Sorry King & Eunice!
Orientation was okay though. It was cold! but i loved the wind.
Tomorrow i need to purchase my $10 I.D.
IMTOFW

Web Cams

i cant sleep
headache. tummy. blah
i think i think too much
Goodmorning

Today i will:
_go to school
_work out & jog
_Anatomy PPP
_design shirt
_Orientation @ 6:30
_Project with NgeOo
_SLEEP EARLY D:<

Waking Up

it feels like my life is falling apart
its time to seriously do something about it.
no more procrastinations or doubting on anything.
Goodmorning reality.
we meet again


im going to church today to pray
then off to the library!

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The library made me feel alot beter
i was looking at some interior designing books..
and i really like the idea of Korean theme indoors (:
Very clean, neat and spacious yet unique.

Fairy Tales

everything seems very dull lately
this morning was full of shit
afternoon was full of fun thanks to tita, NgeOo&Ariel never fail to cheer me up(:
mm.. i really miss last summer ALOT to be honest.

i really need alot of motivation. Im loosing focus..
i've been getting sidetrack too much
ive been reminiscing more than usually lately ..
believe it or not.. i really will miss you very much more than i miss you now :/

Today, ive started rethinking everything again

Long Distance

dont you wish.. you could just simply delete certain people from your mind or at least put them in a recycling bin in your brain? So you wouldnt have to think about them and/or regret things.. and waste time reminiscing so you could lead a happy and productive day. Deleting pictures from your computer wont really help because their pictures & memories cannot be deleted from your brain. The only thing you can really do is to smile because you're thankful they were in your life at least for that short amount of time. Thats what you SHOULD do; but its hard not to be sad.

Electrolytes

This weekend .. even on saturday .. i have not stepped out of the freaking house! 3 days ..
I've slept and spent most of my 3 day weekend on my bed sleeping&resting. Had some time to think and talk to my cousins in the Philippines. I wouldnt say 3 days at home wasnt really a bad thing. It was a really good break from everything. I got to do some things i havent really had time to lately. I made up for lots of sleep that i lost and i feel refreshed.



my moms making me eat pickles -___-
does it really bring your appetite back?

Happy Birthday To Me

Today was my 17th birthday.
- mom woke me @ 6am for her own amusement. -__- but she got me a giant balloon.
- ate a coffee cheese cake thing that said it would expire 5/24 But i guess it decided to expire early
- Diarrhea
- Cj & Pichu came and left
- Ate some ice cream with Santi and Ngeoo.
- everybody lagged it but i don't mind we were just really bored
- When Eunice was just about done doing my hair i started feeling faint-ish then threw up and yea..
- Ariel and Frazier got their period in a smile face
- I felt bad cause i had to sleep while everybody was still there.


Thanks guys for comming even though i was sick :(
& thank you for the presents (:
& thanks to the adults for all the cash >:D


I've realized that most of my birthdays fail. They are cursed i can swear. Theres always something that goes terribly wrong. At first i didnt want to do anything for my birthday because i was scared and i knew something was going to go wrong again. My birthday felt just like any other ordinary day. I wasnt even the least bit exited about it